Feeling all alone with crippling anxiety and fear of everything

I don’t know why I am writing this or what I am getting out of it but I feel trapped and I have to express my feelings otherwise I am going to explode.

I don’t know how to deal with these feelings, I have a crippling anxiety, I feel worthless , I have no one and I am always left out and looked down , I am afraid of everything and afraid of everyone, I always feel less than everyone, I am on a point in my life where these feelings are controlling me and preventing me from moving on with my life …

Whenever I try to do something these overwhelming thoughts of “ not being good enough “ or “ you will never will be able to make it , so why bother yourself and try ?! Quit already! “ .

I feel ugly , stupid, and worthless.

And no one take me seriously, everyone walk all over me ..

I don’t know how to stand up for myself and always settle for less .

Thankfully I have a good paying job but I am not able to make in progress because of my problem and feelings, I don’t have the courage to speak up nor the appropriate social skills to talk to people in my field..

I have no friends nor a family support, I feel all alone like I am the only one with these problems..

It’s frustrating, everyone is moving on with their life and I am still stuck in the same mentality as I was when I was a teenager, unable to change or move on ..

time is passing me by , I am 30 years old I am still the same with the same problems and feelings which are getting progressively worse with time ..

I hate myself every bit of it ,..

Nothing seems to work with me no therapy or medication ..

Any advices or comments are welcomed 😣