I got drunk and embarassed myself in front of my colony and mom
So two days ago,I got drunk with my friends and I completely blacked out for three hours. In those three hrs,I did many things. But the worst one was being so humiliatingly drunk when I entered my colony that my driver had to help me get home. Thankfully my father doesn't know. One or two of my neighbours also saw me. One said 'shes drunk'. I feel like a complete idiot. I know these things happen and it's all right. But it's India and Indian societies are very judgemental. My mom is fine now. But I feel like shit. I feel like there's a pit in my stomach. I feel extremely lonely. I just want to desperately leave this city but my college isn't reopening. I feel somewhat guilty,scared of showing my face to people who had any idea of the incident. I don't know how to even go outside. Sometimes my heart races when I think about it.
@Perfectstranger0909
Sorry about this embarrassing experience. People make mistakes. Everybody does. At the moment that mistake happens, we will feel super bad, guilty, shame...etc. But when the times go by, those feelings will fade away. I know you are worried about other people's judgment. But actually, they are also busy and pay attention to themself. They are not focusing on you. You are in the most vulnerable time now, make sure you talk to the people that you trust. Please not lock up yourself. Things will get better when time goes by. Wish you the best.
