Not within my control
I’m idiotic. I can’t quite stop having anxiety over the things I can’t control. Even small things. Then I get upset as it seems the short end of the stick was given to me and I could feel this rising anger that eventually turn to hatred.
Oh Heaven. People says as we age, we become wiser. But I feel, as I age, I am losing it. My ability to cope. My emotion stability. Control of my thoughts. My sense of self. My patience and tolerance. Whooosh - out the door.
I am so frustrated. I don’t like how I’m feeling. My mind always telling me I can’t lose it, not here, I don’t want to deal with the aftermath consequence of losing it in public. Idk how I can be fill with so much hate, so much rage. I hate it that I can’t act on it. At the same time, I hate it that I feel such way, about even the most simplest of thing. Just cause things don’t go the way I want it doesn’t mean I should feel this way.
What to do when the smallest thing in life send me on a frenzy ride. Sigh.
@Mdreaming101
do you feel out of control even on things you do have control on? the frustration you wrote of in my world increases when i have other things under the surface bothering me ....
maybe a deadline or worse yet ......the hurry up and wait ........ i have tried many suggestions and have not found a solid answer ........for every situation.
IMO patience and tolerance can only go so far ........ and frankly others use this or the word "Mistake " to explain incompetence anymore. gets to a point when you lower your expectations so low ... just not to be disappointed.
@Mdreaming101
Understand the difficult and hard times you are going through. I have been across such where nothing going my way of things, I'm glad that I have come across the method called positive visualisation. It was not easy to bear the pain when things won't go as expected. I hope practising this may ease it and see a great results.
See you with the positive spirits and a lot of successful things you are going to accomplish 😊😍☺️
