Bipolar - how do you actually feel today?

Anxious

I've been feeling a lot of everything today.

I feel like i cant tell the world how i actually feel, because i would be more than judge.. especially by my mom..

Utter sadness.

Empty.

It's been a tough day. I had a panic attack before a job interview over finances. I verbally attacked someone trying to help me. And I cried a lot. But it hasn't been all bad. For the first time in a long time, I cried for me. I didn't cry for what has happened to me, or what I've done to others, or what my life is right now. I cried for myself, for how badly I treat myself, for how much time I've lost being evil, spiteful, and awful to me. I cried because I never give myself the joy and love I deserve. I had this moment of clarity while listening to the positive body image tape. And then I felt a little better for myself. I know this feeling won't lst if I don't keep up with this. So all in all, today has been a mix.

Not good at all.

I'm feeling overwhelmed and scared. Went to a lawyer today with my step dad and started the process for filling for chapter sever bankruptcy.

In pain, but okay.

It's been a very confusing week, and my mood is all over the place. Been trying to get everything under control, slowly but surely!

Overall I feel neutral I guess.