Irritable, angry, sad and paranoid 😞
Hey, new here, I have had such an array of emotions and obsessive thoughts, lots of paranoid self conversations too, feeling so heightened and vunerable, which I guess is why I feel these things, but I am not prone to anger burst and I got so mad at my pillow last night I cried and punched it off my bed 🫣 it felt good but also, stupid, insomnia is driving me nuts that I'm taking it out on my pillow or duvet like I'm 13 again, I have good sleep hygiene but the last 2 months it has been unbearable, with these feelings on top, I have issues with addiction in the past and I'm trying to stay straight but part of me just wants to go away and indulge so I can be out of it, but knowing it'll logically set me so *** far back again, I fought so hard to be where I am now, but saw a psychiatrist today who made me feel sooooo *** for finally asking for some help 🙄
Trigger
Hello Last year two Wonderful Special members of our Family passed away. Both extremely unexpected. My Sister Cathy passed away January 8, 2022. Heart attack or stroke. She was all alone. Her Daughter my Niece Melodie (Mello) found her. My Nephew BJ passed away March 17, 2022, 10:54 Colorado time. He was walking across the street and got hit by a drunk driver. He hit his head. I am grieving so so much more this year than last year. Also my Friend Michel of 20 years passed away. Another unexpected. I found him which i am sure will be in my heart forever. I am supposed to be getting ready to move this month. But so disconnected from most things around me. Even my cat which I feel so guilty and sorry for her. Hopefully this does not sound as though I am sitting feeling sorry for myself. Thank you for listening
@happyfacesadface113
Yes I have empathy for what you are going through. I really do understand about not being prone to anger. Hopefully for you life will calm down a bit soon.
