Needing a friend/ guidance
I was diagnosed 8 years ago... right before I had my second bad ectopic pregnancy... ive had 5 now and had to have my tubes removed life's been a roller coaster that I've just been getting by on.. but rn im drowning the worst I ever have... I havent been showing up the way I used to in my relationship... I been triggered by everything and all things baby related anytime its around... and it isnt like a mad I get jealous in a gross way... but I just recently had another surgery due to really bad cramping thought I had endometriosis... the drs found nothing... so im healing and on bed rest... so with that being said im stuck here thinking.. then over thinking... to the point of I havent been able to eat or sleep in 3 days now... how my body's failed me... how the drs cant find nothing so I feel failed there.. I been extra needy craving physically being held by my sig other. But because I was emotionally unavailable for him now he has been to me... which isnt helping how I feel already...
@doshabutt1
that definitely sounds like a lot to go through.. try to be kind and patient with yourself. You are grieving. Grieving can bring up all sorts of emotions. Denial, anger. Sadness. Guilt. Be loving to yourself. Communication with your partner. If you need to be held just say so. You might not even be able to express exactly how you feel but give yourself time. Surgery puts your body through a toll too. Also yourself the ability to just be. ♥️♥️♥️ hugs to you. Take by day. Step by step. Rest. Eat.
@doshaburr I'm so sorry. Hugs 🫂. How long are you on bed rest for? I have never been on bed rest, but I can imagine it must be pretty difficult and nerve-wracking. Please keep us updated.