Depression Support Weekly Check-in; June 1st-6th, 2021
Hello everyone. Another weekly check-in here! I hope that all of you have been doing well. Welcome back for the friendly faces around here. Newcomers are highly welcomed to join us here.
Here's your check-in questions for this week:
1) How are you doing recently? Awesome? Declining? Steady?
2) What's a reoccuring thought you've been having?
3) Which season fits for your personality best? Spring,summer, fall or winter? And why?
Thanks for attending this check-in. Your response are truly appreciated. Remember that you're not alone and we're here for you. We're looking forward to reading your reponse. That's all for now. Stay safe and take care.
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It's my birthday and my life is over and I want to be killed.
I know birthdays can be especially tough. My gift to you is a new found peace for the coming year. I have been thinking about you. @tluper6491
@kdsyahirah
In awful mood as always . For the past few months I have been experiencing symptoms of ADHD . I find it extremely tough to concentrate and my mind is always swamped with thoughts . I am afraid I might have ADHD . Would need to consult my psych regarding this.......
First it was only depression , then OCD came in , and now perhaps ADHD too . I am just fedup of all this . Making no improvements whatsoever. ................
@calmsoulmeet I understand the hard to focus and the million thoughts. I'm going through it too.
@Rebekahwriter13
Oh I see... Have u found any coping methods ?? If yes do share ....
@calmsoulmeet
When I have energy. . . going for a walk. . . praying. . . writing out my thoughts: journal or stories, and coloring, pets help too
Remember that the meds can cause confusion and racing thoughts in and of themselves. If you stay too focused on the future and worrying about what you might have, you will waste energy. Focus on the present. Take a deep breath. You can do this. @calmsoulmeet
@bestVase7265
I needed an opinion on something. Do u think that what I am experiencing could well be side effects of anti depressants I am consuming ?? If yes , how do I address the issue . I mean I need anti depressants for depression and all , so can't avoid it. Are meds like double edged sword ? .
Yes, there are lots of possible side effects. Talk over everything with your psychiatrist until you can find better meds at the right doses that work for you. If the psychiatrist doesn't seem to be helping, find another. There are people out there with the advice that can help.
There can also be lots of other factors at play as well. I was just watching a documentary on menopause, for instance, which clearly linked brain confusion betweeen 30-50 year old women as connected to changing estrogen levels.
So don't go off the meds that you are currently taking right away. Keep experimenting. Lots of patience and conversation is involved. @calmsoulmeet
@bestVase7265
Is it even realistically possible to reach a stage where one no longer needs meds for depression ? Especially considering the fact when one has been on meds for 5 long years .....
What's your opinion on this.
I don't know. I have been on meds for about the same length of time. I attempted once to go off one of them really slowly. It didn't really work, but I may try again eventually. They do change your brain chemistry.@calmsoulmeet
Hey there, good people. Take care! 1) I was better at the start of the week, but recently I am declining again... And I am not very sure I can get back up, like always... 2) The hopless ones. My depression makes me a liar... And all those annoying "what ifs"... 3) Fall. And the fall of the human civilisation suits me even better...
You have gotten back up before. You can do it again. @versatilePear4061
Yes. Probably. I repeat this to myself too. Each time it feels like this time I won't get back up, but also - each time I've gotten back...
Yes, you have. And when you really think about it, the hole is rarely quite as deep or long lasting. Equally painful, no doubt, but you have a way through. @versatilePear4061
1) How are you doing recently? Awesome? Declining? Steady? Declining-ish. . . I feel like I am trying to climb a mountain and yet I'm slipping. My dark side keeps asking "What is the point?" My health has been declining and I am always tired. Even with my cpap, I just do not feel I am getting enough sleep. I am on water pills that hve my bladder on overdrive. My doctor told me i need to take diabetic meds, but I'm allgeric to them. It's so hard to focus or exercise when I am exhausted. I have carpal tunnel and it's been hard to write when I keep dropping my pen.
2) What's a reoccuring thought you've been having? You will not be missed when you are gone. They will do better without you. You just get in the way.
3) Which season fits for your personality best? Spring,summer, fall or winter? And why? Fall. . . dark and yet colorful, and hot tea and hot cocoa are a must. I also like apples and baking cookies.
Well, I would miss you for one. I totally understand the medical stuff bringing you down. But you are finding a way throug the pain slowly but surely. You will find the answers that you need. @Rebekahwriter13
1. I'm steady and ok the reason is because I'm always having family problems and they always put me down and it changes my whole mood I'm like a whole different person and I hate it because I been through alot my whole like I was being abused then got older my family disowned me which was my dad theres alot on my mind especially my relationship she just brings me alot more stress and depression I hate it because not just the feeling but because I have no one to talk to 2. The thought I been having is am I good enough for everyone why does everyone hate me even though I never did nothing wrong all I wanted was to feel loved and wanted and cared for never felt that at all 3. Winter because my mood is always foggy like I'm happy one moment but then when the people that hurt me bad the storm comes and i hide my true self because they take advantage
I can imagine how discouraging your family's words are. You are right about not deserving them. Turning them off can be really hard. What kinds of things do you do to remind yourself that you are worthy and deserving of love?@Xavier1980
@kdsyahirah
Hi there!
1) I haven't been too well. Recently, there was drama in my household, and my "third eye"- if you believe in that sort of thing- has been getting stronger, which has both benefits and drawbacks to it. The biggest drawback is that I can see this one particular ghost haunting me, and I recognize him from back when I was younger. He still scares me even now.
2) "You may have taken the lead, but I'll even the score. You won the battle; you won't win the war- not now, and nevermore." (Quoted from the song "Nevermore" by Casey Lee Williams.)
3) Autumn, of course! I feel like parts of me are decaying and slipping away like the autumn leaves- but I recognize the beauty in that occurrence, and I know that the current wilting only means to serve as an introduction to my eventual rebirth.
Thank you for the check-in; I appreciate you! <3
Sending lots of peace. You are stronger than you know. @TheAutumnWitch
Hi. First time posting.
I don't really know what to focus on here so I'm just going to talk. Hopefully this all makes sense.
I am not doing well at all. My (ex) girlfriend broke up with me about three weeks ago. The details of the breakup aren't really important except that she was my best friend and the girl I wanted to marry. Ever since she broke it off I have been very depressed. At first I figured I was just going through the grieving process, but I can't pull out of it. Actually it's been getting worse and that worries me.
On the outside I've been able to appear like I am doing ok but on the inside I feel hollow and empty. I have been doing things that people have recommended to try to distract/help myself feel better, like exercise and engaging in hobbies, but none of it has helped really. I can't stand to be at my house (we lived together), so I have just been wandering aimlessly around the city. When I go home it's to sleep, and that's a whole problem. My sleep habits have been absolute garbage and when I can manage to fall asleep it's only for like two or three hours at a time. I've been trying to eat, like at all, but food just doesn't have any appeal. As a chef that's a crazy thing to say out loud.
Usually I am a happy-go-lucky person. The truth is that I would be totally normal had I not lost my best friend. Now, that's not exactly healthy, I know. My happiness should not be based on anyone other than myself. And truthfully it's not. I just feel like I lost all of the good parts of me when she left.
So I just feel lost.
My goal here is to get past this. I'm not trying to sit around wallowing in self-pity. Believe me if I could feel any other way I would definitely do it. I just don't know how to get there.
Thanks so much for sharing. This is a great place to do so. When depression first hits, it can be really scary. For me, it felt like I was being hit out of the blue as well. I tried everything that I could think of to talk myself out of it. Not sleeping was the worst. It took me a long time, but I finally went to my doctor and opened up. My point is that it took me a bit too long and I was suffering needlessly. Finding people to talk to can really help. Feel free to share here any time. @J3H
Also just recently lost my best friend, it's been 2 days now , and it hurts like crazy, I'm at that point where my emotions are overwhelming. I cant wait for the crying and acceptance stage... I things seem bleak at the moment but this will pass, you will one day look back at her and your time together fondly, try not to romanticise the relationship, being realistic and honest about everything,this approach will help you heal and move on faster. Good luck and stay strong
Happy Monday! QOTD: "Just keep breathing."
Breathing is a good thing. @joyousHug4511
1. Doing ok--just increased my meds two days ago because I've been declining in depression. I'm feeling a bit dizzy and tired from the medicine, so I'm taking the day off work. Dealing with some anxiety too.
2. A recurrent thought is how I wish I could get a different job, but how if I do, I'll lose my side job, too, which I really love...but my FT job is really hard lately. The people I work for don't communicate well and I'm expected to know what my duties are without anyone telling me...it's frustrating.
3. Summer is my favorite season. I love the sunshine. So thankful for it right now! I'm generally a happy and warm and supportive person (though lately I've been anxious and depressed), which is why I would say summer matches my personality.
Sorry for all the medication issues and the recurrent thought patterns. None of it is really fun and one may be connected to the other. Giving yourself some space to breathe was a good thing. @warmheartedHorse2272
Doing horrible. I dont really know what to say other than that.
Sending peace. Sorry that you are struggling. @shinylucariomasi
