Tired

@calmmoon2104

Hi Moon 🤍
I’m really sorry you’re feeling this overwhelmed and exhausted right now :(
I think you’ve been holding so much pain and disappointment inside for a long time. And in such times when one tries to reach out and doesn't get a quick response, it can make that loneliness feel even heavier. Anyone in that situation would feel frustrated and hurt. 

Moon, your feelings matter, and you’re not pathetic or ungrateful for wanting someone to listen. Wanting support is a very human need. 🤍
The fact that you’re still here expressing what you’re going through shows how much strength you’ve already used just to keep going.

Sometimes replies on platforms can be slow but that doesn’t mean people don’t care about you or that you don’t deserve support. You do. Your life and your experiences matter more than this moment of silence might make it feel.

If things start feeling too overwhelming or you feel like you might hurt yourself, please consider reaching out to a crisis service or a trusted person in your life right away. You don’t have to handle all of this alone, and there are people trained to support you through moments like this.
Stay Safe, Moon
You're not alone in the way your mind is telling you that you are. There are people here who care about U even when your mind screams nobody cares or listens 🫂🤍
your life matters, Friend 💛

@calmmoon2104 ugh I really relate to the listener thing and it sucks. I had three listeners in a row ghost me yesterday for no apparent reason when I just needed someone to listen. There are some good ones out there though. On my profile I have a list of awesome listeners who have never let me down if you want to check that out. Sorry this has been happening so much to you. I get it. It sucks

@calmmoon2104 oh my goodness I feel ashamed on behalf of any listeners who have done this! I get that emergencies come up sometimes and we have to randomly leave but it should not be happening this often. I would love to chat with you if youre willing. I have experience in most everything you are struggling with right now. If you ever need someone to listen I am here for you. You are not alone ❤️ 🙂

I am so so so sorry you feel this way. I started crying reading this because of how much I relate to your struggles.

WARNING ‼️⚠️⛔️

DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT ADVICE- this is coming from a person under the age of 18, so don’t get too offended if I say something wrong please.

There have been many times where I have considered giving up on life and just ending it, but each time I try to remember what I would be leaving behind.

My family, my friends, everything. You will never play your favorite sport again, you will never draw again, you will never taste delicious food again, you will never look at a beautiful place again, you will never be able to take a full, deep breath and slowly let it out.

I am under the age of 18 and although I might not have a lot of experience in life, I want to be able to live past my 18th birthday and experience all that is to come.

Don’t give up on yourself, think about all the memories you have had in the past that made you laugh, think about all the memories that will come in the future that will make you smile.

Although it might be tempting to just set yourself free and not be burdened with all the terrible things that come with life, there is so much more out there for you to experience.

I hope you know how much you are loved, never give up on yourself, it will get better!

I am so so so sorry you feel this way. I started crying reading this because of how much I relate to your struggles.

WARNING ‼️⚠️⛔️

DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT ADVICE- this is coming from a person under the age of 18, so don’t get too offended if I say something wrong please.

There have been many times where I have considered giving up on life and just ending it, but each time I try to remember what I would be leaving behind.

My family, my friends, everything. You will never play your favorite sport again, you will never draw again, you will never taste delicious food again, you will never look at a beautiful place again, you will never be able to take a full, deep breath and slowly let it out.

I am under the age of 18 and although I might not have a lot of experience in life, I want to be able to live past my 18th birthday and experience all that is to come.

Don’t give up on yourself, think about all the memories you have had in the past that made you laugh, think about all the memories that will come in the future that will make you smile.

Although it might be tempting to just set yourself free and not be burdened with all the terrible things that come with life, there is so much more out there for you to experience.

I hope you know how much you are loved, never give up on yourself, it will get better!

Oh, I have the terrible feeling you might not even remember good moments now @calmmoon2104 … And the little nice things (like seeing beautiful place) might not seem like enough to justify staying with the pain…

—— Crossing into advice below… ———————

It could be worth giving a shot those little things when you feel the despair. If you chose to spend 10 min in mindfulness exercise on regular bases? To consciously feel something else than the despair and pain? (Note: I am not saying your despair is not valid. It is.) I think of creating a moment where you say no matter how bad it is outside of this 10min, now I with myself and choose to experience my being. Your weight on the couch, softness of a blanket, smell of it, the air entering your lungs… (Note2: I am not saying it will magically make you feel ok. I think it might give your brain a chance to open to something more. I can’t tell what exactly. Something better perhaps.)

There is something I would like to ask you personally here. Would you share what would look like a life worth living? What would be different? I have the feeling that you would describe something really beautiful for me while looking like ordinary. I have the feeling you would capture something about belonging and feeling connected in a very deep way. This is what I would try to do. Would you try doing it for me/us?

I have he same thoughts but it’s not working. Admit, accept, come out and treat your self. We all here to help n support each other with our bitter experiences to get help. So hold on TrustcAlmighty God, Treatvyourself withbPsychaitrist n Therepists here which is very important. Join us share n experience . U will be out soon. Takecare

@calmmoon2104

*sending a ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ if ok. I'm really sorry to hear things are getting worse for you blue moon ☹️💙

I know having to survive the life you get to live is tough...But somehow you did it and doing it moon, you're a fighter,there's something in you which keeps you going. I know you must be feeling tired but do you think you should treat yourself badly when others are doing the same? Yeah, ppl can be ignorant and not give you a listening ear, even though you deserve a safe space to share your thoughts but you can try listen to yourself for a bit too moon, i can't make decisions for you or change your mind since I have no rights. But you get to choose, if no one is treating you kindly, try to treat yourself bit kindness, it's not selfish. Self hatred will make you feel like you are not important go anyone, but trust me moon, no one can replace you or be you and you're very special and I'm really glad you haven't gave up yet  and still standing💙

I hope you stay safe. 

(And if you want maybe i can suggest some listeners if they are still taking chat)