i need help
i feel stuck like my life is in a never ending loop, one day i’m happier than ever and the next i’m so depressed i can’t even take care of my dog or eat and it never ends. i’ve struggled with MDD since i was 9-10 and i thought i got better but it’s been almost a decade and it never ends. my whole mood depends on the people around me and their feelings i don’t see value in myself unless other people do first, i feel like all of my friends hate me right now and like i’ll never find a guy for me. i just feel worthless and like a failure. i don’t have a job i barely got into college and nothing i’ve ever done has felt good. i hate how much i struggle with myself but i hate talking about the things i struggle with i just feel so weird saying things about my mental health to other people. i’m constantly anxious about the future, or if i even have one with how things are going, i want so many things but i can never find the motivation or energy to get them i can barely get out of bed most days. i constantly struggle with myself body image, feeling like i’m not a real person or like nothing is real, depression, anxiety, self harm, addiction and ptsd every single day and i don’t know how to make it stop i’m barely 18 and i just want to give up i’m out of options.
@luxheart hug you. I see you have a lot of negative problems. I hope you can take a look at this self-help guide and have a small way to go.
@luxheart
it is a struggle and many have various levels of the feelings you described ... I too have had real ups and downs but most of the things you described can be helped when you become your own best friend do not take on other people's moods or feelings and quit worrying about jobs or meeting someone. In my own experience it seems like repellant of good things coming into my world.
I learned to like myself as is .. did not try to stress every day about trivial things. that is when opportunities or people appeared in my life. time is valuable and we do not get do-overs so hiding away and not living you will not get that time back. things you end up having the best time or liking the best sometimes we do not know until we have been doing it for a whilenothing worthwhile is instant.
@luxheart I feel all the same things you mentioned like feeling like friends hate me, my parents call me lazy, feeling low or depressed for no reason. Feeling drained out both mentally and physically. Not getting out from house. Constantly feeling anxious for nothing. Lost all the potential. And now seeking motivation to live my life. Everyday feels like roller coaster ride one day is I'm spending it as I want on another it becomes my depression session. And rn I'm not living I'm just surviving everyday. I hope we get better soon and live our lives to its fullest. Take care😊
