Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Hi, today
im so tired,
tired of being weird,
tired of living a mediocre life.
Tired of looking at my life and notice that I haven't
accomplished anything and that my life is so boring.
I have no real friends. I have no family that actually cares
about what I have to say. My house makes me want to puke and I have no help from no one.
Sometimes I just want to run away, and not with a man...Just alone with my daughters and try to live a normal life with no relationships at all.
I used this for the first time last night.
I felt tired, empty and lost. I'm sick of feeling like an empty shell and my meds aren't working anymore. I have too many highs and lows at the moment.
Someone on here spoke to me through IM for hours and made me feel safe enough to not hurt myself or do anything else. I really appreciate her for that. I woke up today still feeling crap but took control and made an emergency GP appointment to discuss how i am feeling and my medication. I also then made another referral to do cognetive behaviour therapy when i'm feeling more stable.
Completely and utterly just disappointed with myself. It's never a surprise anymore. I deactivate my dA account and now I have to wait two days to get it back. Job well done for panicking, me.
I'm feeling better ... Confirmation that people actually do care was such a good thing for me yesterday. Trying to be positive and survive day to day.
We care because we've all been there. Xxx
I honestly feel like taking a shower.. eating something then being in bed by 1600. I can't deal right now
I got through another day!! Nervous and scared. I start rape counselling tomorrow. Nervous about opening up a can of worms. I just can't wait for bedtime every day.
sad & worthless.
Like hiding under my desk and rocking back and forth nude a blanket. Instead I'm making calls and getting stuff done. I'd rather be asleep.
*under. Not nude. Yikes haha
Thank you, that made me smile...spell correction has gotten me into trouble before too
@TheSirenCalledLorelei
It's awesome that you're getting stuff done though! I hope you got everything you needed to done and that now you're able to relax and sleep a while. <3
lost alone gone. the darkness is consuming me. i want to let it take me.
I am currently feeling lost and confused about what direction I should take for my future. I feel as though everyone else my age (college - aged) knows exactly what they desire in life, while I am still stuck.
@courtly25 -- Don't feel so bad about not knowing what you want in life... where you want to go... what you want to do. I'm in my 40s and I still don't know! I definitely feel like everyone my age knows exactly what they want... You are definitely not alone!
What I wish someone told me when I was much younger -- Make 2 columns - in the first, write a list of what you love to do. Doesn't have to be a school subject -- just anything you enjoy. Then, in the other column, write jobs/careers that might correspond to those things you enjoy (if you can... there is probably not a career that corresponds to sleep, for example, which is something I enjoy 
). Update the list as needed.
If someone told me to do this back in college, I might be an architectural engineer or something right now... instead of unemployed.
And remind yourself that you don't have to have it all figured out!