Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Overwhelmed, stressed, anxious, like screaming and crying and hiding.

STOIC

im not sure if i have depression. but today i woke up at 11 and didnt want to do anything. i wanted to go back to sleep

Tired, numb, sad, lonely .

I feel tired of hiding the fact that I've felt numb for over two years. I just want to feel something, anything.

Getting home after work on Friday, I got into a bad mood. Started during dinner, which made me lose my appetite. By the time I finished washing the dishes, it was a quarter to 9pm. I just went to brush my teeth, went to my bedroom, closed the door, and sat on the floor listening to music through earphones from my phone.

I've been feeling teary since then, it's 3:40am now. I still feel really depressed and can't fall asleep. I'm still listening to music. It usually helps with music, but it's having no effect yet this time around. I've also been sighing a lot during this time.

Not being able to say anything or be heard is very hard. I should be used to suffering alone by now, but I can't ever get used to it. As I've always hoped for more understanding, and feeling comfortable to share my thoughts without being judged/criticized. When I know that will not happen with my family, I end up choosing not to say anything at all. As I know if I said anything, how my family members will respond, it will just make me feel even worse. Always in this alone..

I feel like i'm close to a mental break down.

Feeling a 6/10, which is pretty ok

I can't grasp time, focus, or finish anything. My mind is lost in a fog it never seems to get out of. It's hard to type even this much.

I'll be fine