Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel kinda horrible. I hate waking up everyday.....

I just want this work day to be over. And all days to be over.

I feel old, tired, sick of life, hopeless, helpless and worthless. My AD isn't working anymore, I am trying to withdraw from benzos and I can't even find a decent PDoc. I just want it all to be over.

Ifeel really anxious and sad.Ialways feel like I'm running out of time. I hateit. Also, every timesomething bad happens to me, it could be the slightest thing like a friend making a joke at me orgetting something small thrown at me, I instantly think of ending it. I guess I've reached my limit?...

I get depressed from music, but it's addictive. Is that healthy?

I'm feeling really down today. I'm having problems looking in the mirror and not being upset with how I look.

I'm feeling really down today. I'm having problems looking in the mirror and not being upset with how I look.

Mixed emotions at the moment. Im either ok or totally other end and cannot cope with life anymore. This changes within hours. Im confused by these feeling and my nrain feels like its going to explode

There's a point that you go numb from it all. Like not feelinganythingbecause you don't want to feel the pain anymore, you'd rather give up the bits of joy to notfeel all of the pain.I'm tired of loathing around in self pity and self hatred, I'm tired of having to take pain killers to stop the headaches that follow crying, that follow the panick attacks and the stress and the traumatic flash backs of abusive situations. I'm tired of smiling and trying to act happy around friends and family, I'm tired of the stereotypes and judgemental people, I'm tired of trying to care for others when I can't take care of myself... I'm tired.

I'm not really feeling well today. I don't think I want to keep going through this.