When no one understands what I deal with and decide to bring up allllllll those horror movie tropes about what I deal with :))))
I feel most alone when I am i need of my friends ( and i do not ask for much of anything ever) and i reach out only to have my fears be made reality and my friends are not there for me at all. AND I AM TRULEY ALONE.
@blissedNblessed you've just described exactly what I'm going through. Totally get where you're coming from.
@Mez79P
hugs
im sorry that you know this pain...its awful.
and its horrible to feel alone and have friends emotionally abandon us.
but i can say,
i let go 2 of my toxic friends that are not there for me...
there was pain at first...
and more lonley time...
but...
it was so worth it to slowly start to get rid of ppl that treat me less than i deserve.
you are not alone.
you got me :)
When people stop checking up on me and just think I'm always fine
@smolstrawberries i know that one
When I believe no human truly love me.
I feel most alone when so called friends know that I'm struggling and rather than check in on me when I've tried to reach out you see their happy snaps with others on social while you're home alone in the dark.
When I realize that I care about my friends but they don't care about me
When I realize that If I vanish today from the face of this planet, my friends will probably realize it due to the fact that I won't be checking up on them anymore, coz no one cares enough to check up on me.
@PhaedrusMaynard both of us need better friends. Hence why I've started to label mine "so called friends". I think mine have completely forgotten about me especially now since I've reduced the amount of times I'm checking in with them because I've got numerous sh#t of my own to deal with a.t m.
😢
When I want a hug and be told that I will beat eating disorder
I don't many nice, supportive and unabusive friends to chat with.
When I feel depressed to the point that it turns into actual pain, and there's no one in my everyday life I can tell, at all.
My parents and family? They'll say it's me being lazy as usual, and won't take it seriously. They'll be mean about it.
My friends? I just changed high schools. I'm not close enough with anyone here, and I wouldn't tell them anyways. It'll just make stuff awkward. And my old friends? Nope. The only one I can trust has her own problems as well, much worse than what I face, and I can't burden her.
Oh, what about a counsellor or therapist? I need parental consent. That's as good as telling them. Even the one in my school requires it.
I feel lonely when I realise to have friends and to be with other people, I have to keep smiling, even if I'm this close to breaking completely. When I realise in real life, there's pretty much no one by my side, no one who actually knows everything about me. And no one probably ever will.
@violetshadow I feel you. It sounds sad but I know that you are an amazing person. And I am always there for you. You will get your fair share of happiness. I believe in you.😊
