One thing that is contributing to my depression is....

Hearing about money troubles first thing in the morning

My future and people telling me to live in the present.I'm getting really stressed at work lately yet I feel like I'm going nowhere in my life. A lot of people expects so much out of me but the people close to me thinks I'm a disappointment or amounts to nothing and they have absolutely zero support for me.

Not being able to get out of my head. When I wake it's there, when I rest it's there, I can't get away from the hurt and loneliness.

My dad has kidney disease and may not live many more years and I don't know how to cope when he dies

Recurring head fog/ear congestion- it makes me feel spacey and is a challenge to get going

...seeing myself as hopless and or a victim.

My past behavior that ruined friendships & how it happened with certain kinds of friends, while my other friendships have been unharmed to the same degree

Everything about life. I have a dead end job, which is my only option after getting fired from 2 different jobs, I've failed college 3 times so that's no longer an option, I have zero friends and have autism and bad social anxiety so nobody would want to be friends with me anyways, and the cost of living is barely covered by my job to the point some days it's hard to pay to eat. I'm convinced my life is over and I should just stop living since it'll only get worse

my perspective on things and seeing myself as a helpless and hopless victim...feeds right into my depression.

My shitty sleep cycle. I can feel it in my bones.