One word I'd use to describe my depression is.....
Relentless
Darkness
@jyxt5378
Totally get that at times, I just want to destroy myself. Then it gives me more motivation. It's a strange concept and I don't understand why. I just am doing what I do best, I live a life and have faith in the best.
Trapped. It's like I'm drowning with no way out... the world seems dark, even if there's sun, it looks dark. Everyone's laugh seems hollow and smiles look fake. When you cry, it's like you'll never stop and you're trapped, with all the demons in your brain in almost a box, where there is no way out and you're to suffer. It physically hurts and everytime you think of reaching out, it's like the demons are pulling you back down.
Deafening.
Horrible.
Restraining
Betrayed.
Draining.
Encompassing... even on good days its still there lurking in the background and when it takes over its like a fog rolling out and slowly enfolding everything in its path and theres no stopping it even though i can see it coming. And it affects everything from my energy to my social life to my desire to do anything at all to my ability to make any decisions. Another word for it sometimes: paralyzing.
It's not a word, it's a phrase: Ghost in the Machine.