One word to describe how I feel today is....

@TreaureSeekers3 because of the way I was abused during and after 3 yrs of 24/7 live in Care giving only to be put out on the street with no money or job. It forced me into a Nursing and Rehabilitation facility. I have been here over 8 months and my mental health support here has been pathetic. I am so sad and alone never getting visitors and zero income so I can’t get things I need. I am often fed like a child and I am 6’6” 330 lbs. The family my father married into are very mean narcissistic vain selfish beings I never want to see or hear ever again. Life at 60 with no financial support is incredibly hard and cold. My depression is off the charts. I just get to cry uncontrollably and wonder why I am still here other than to suffer.