Feeling a little sad today? It's okay, let's be sad together.

Have left my job and become self employed due to exhaustion. Feeling like I'll never get any clients for my new business. Money is scary right now.

New medicine is messing with my mood big time and it's causing troubles at work. Also I started hardcore missing my ex again out of nowhere :(

@Laura

Me. Just me. Only me. I want to be better, I fail. I want to be sad, I fail. Il fail with everything. And I make my beloved one sad with my behavior. I can't handle it anymore. Kindness is great, but I don't deserve it. Compliments are great, but I don't deserve either. I can be the most beautiful person for the other, not for me. And it drags me down.

I can handle myself, but sometimes, I want to loved myself. I just can't. It's been so long... I want to continue the struggle, but at the same time, I want to give up.

Awesome.

I feel sad because I get anxiety thinking about being with a woman. I've wound myself up so much that even the thought brings anxiety. I'm working on it though. I hope that one day I'll be in a normal and stable relationship.

Yesterday, my mam bought me two new bottom retainers because I had snapped the last two. I wore one of them for the first time last night and this morning I woke up late. I was in a mad rush to get ready for college and I must have just shot my retainer anywhere. I've just been looking for it and couldn't find it, it's not in my room or in the bathroom. My mam shouted at me because my dog has probably ate it and I feel so bad because she paid a lot of money for the retainers and I've already lost one of them, and my dog might be poorly because of it.

Well ive felt really down for the last couple of weeks, ive got everything i could ask for...a fantastic husband, 2 beautiful children, 2 lovely dogs and finally got my own pony after waiting 10yrs a few months ago...feel silly for feeling down! My friend passed away last week, feel like i cant do anything right especially at work, people having a go at me for different things, family fallouts as usual, but my sister has had a baby today and no one will tell me anything, ive deleted and blocked all my immediate family apart from my mum as im sick of crying because of them. Just feel shit! Had an operation yesterday n only my mum has bothered to ask how i am, my dad n sisters havent bothered at all! Feeling pushed out as usual n unwanted by my family AGAIN!

I just found out that my gramma is basically ready to pass away due to Alzheimer's, if only her pain didn't make her cling on. As her primary caregiver, Grandpa may be next because she gives/gave him a reason to exist.

^ Wow. I send all of you positive energy.

Today i am just feeling really depresseded right now i feel like i have no one to talk to anymore i have been just having a terribel week i just need someone to talk to i guess.

I'm sad and angry at myself. I'm furious at how I feel about certain people in my life. I want to hurt myself but it never lasts long enough to make me feel better. It just makes me more angry.

im still waiting for the part where life gets better but I seem to be going down the elevator instead of up.