I think of the past and all the stupid mistakes I made and how my life could have been so, so much better than it is
I feel most sad when I'm being ignored, knowing i'm not good enough for the person.
I am sad always. I don't know what happiness is. I live in an environment where no one understands me. I can never do what i want. I don't have anybody to talk to.
I feel like I'm a nuisance to people I care about.
when i feel alone and isolated
I realize I am chosing to let me Eating Disorder win because I am refusing to look at and face and talk about the core issues Behind the ED out of shame , gilt and fear.
I think about what a failure i am... All the makes mistakes I
I feel the most sad when i have no one to talk to about my problem, Ignored by the person i wanted to talk with, I think theres no solution in my problem, Remembering all the bad things ive ever done in my life.
I think about my moms death and going to spread her ashes next week.
My family doesnt understand me, what Im going through or how to help. When they dont believe mental health is a problem. And when they dont seem to care about my life