One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I feel empty and desolate from everyone around me. Whenever I am around other people, I feel trapped, extremely overthinking the consequences, knowing how irrational they are. Instead of probably having fun with others, I am just there, as if watching through the looking glass (if I havent escaped to someplace safe yet). My brain tells me its better to leave no impression than risk a bad one. In any given social situation I just think I cant, this person may think Im X. Its not that I dont have friends I talk to, but I can never have a meaningful conversation. Whenever it exceeds past banter I lock up. It seems so simple to just blurt out my problems but I dont want to burden them and I never am certain I can trust anyone on that level, including family.
@bubbleCranberry2574
You sound like me - a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP).
A friend introduced me to this type of personality -- and it was nice to realize, that there are others out there who overthink - especially since a decision doesn't really have 2 answers, it's more like 2 bajillion when I look at it because of the tangents that come from a simple decision (even if it is just yes or no or orange or apple).
I, too, have trouble in groups connecting, concerned about being judged (because an HSP reads micro-expressions and interprets and infers them as precursors to an emotion), and just kinda' zones out to protect because there's too much stimuli going on. I usually just avoid groups all together unless its a group that have figured me out -- so that's like next to none at the moment - but that's okay, I'd rather spend time with people that get that I'll disappear for awhile from the group to take a break than those who don't and just think I'm being a snob.
Coping is hard to do -- reaching out like this is a good start. Finding a listener might help too. Once you understand how to help yourself, find someone in your group and clue them to how you're feeling and they can help you or run interference.
If you figure out how to simplify decision-making and not zoning out as much -- please come back and share, I'd like to know.
Thanks for sharing
People who are alway rude to me. My dvd i had order that i was promise to get that i was prevent from getting
Never being able to find or give love.
Knowing my mother will never believe that I was raped.
@adaptableBirch7193why wouldn't she?
That I'm not good enough to be here in school. That I will fail and waste the money that my parents are putting down for me to be here.
@Sgriffin1 you belong at your school ,dont let anyone or anything stop you from what you want
The fact that I screwed things up ..when I was just trying to say how I felt
@Dobado34 I'm sitting with the same issue. And mine happened when I was drunk - which just made it so much worse. And it got so twisted. I went in with the nicest of intentions. And muy drunken self just made a massive mess of it.
Still no email from the Program Assistant to offer me a seat in the program I'm preparing to take for February. She say's she will notify us in November. Checking my emails frequently for the past couple days. Hoping to see her email, so I can register for Program and be able to know when I can hand in my two week's notice for work!~
Feeling worthless
@Thebetween
YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS. Everyone, EVERYONE, deserves something ... even you, even me.
Going to college with intense enthusiasm and knowing I wanted to major in Psychology, then added another major in Philosophy, and wanted my Masters and PhD in both so I could practice on my own with couples and families...then having to take multiple leaves of absence from college due to extreme illnesses that made me fall WAY behind in school, which costed $50,000 per year and I have over $30,000 per year in debt. So I didn
@KatieKatA92
My ex died in January and I realize how much I miss him.
I know that I'm my life up