One word to describe my depression is ....

My closest and oldest friend

lonely

Unbearable

Unendurable.

Hefty..

burden

Unrelenting.

I don't know how to describe it in one word technically I can't but I really want to die so in the meantime I guess I'm just going to push myself as far as I can go we got some really light beer to help push it along maybe and I drink two cans and I really don't feel anything it's probably been too many hours third cans not really too much

Worried

Painful