You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Yesterday i found out from my parents that my seven year old dog died. I was just starting to go through recovery too but now it
My body and my curves are NOT as important as my morals, character and the comapny I keep. My ass may look good to you but I could be a mean person. Think about it.
Good daughter
Meh mother
who cares wife
non existent sibling
angry employee
frustrated instructor
want to cry constantly
they dont notice...or dont care
and neither do i
only bright light is fading
I don't even really know where to start this vent but I know I need it. I feel consumed by misanthropy but in such a paradoxical way. I feel a strong contempt for most of the human race, but it's not that hard for me to find the good in people at the same time. But when I feel crossed, my emotions are way out of proportion. I shake, I cry, I feel filled up with anger, and I hate feeling like that. I want to escape this black hole that I can feel myself getting sucked into.
(trigger warning, sexual assault below)
I have a huge history of pretty serious abuse, bullying, sexually assaulted by medical professionals twice, and other traumas. I feel like it has framed my mind to see the world as a truly evil place. The current state of the world doesn't really help either. It's like there is this huge weight sitting on me trying to crush me constantly. If I weren't a natural optimist, I don't think it would be possible to resist the urge to collapse into myself. People have let me down my entire life. It's hard to not assume that their actions are with evil intentions. I have problems with black and white thinking. Things are either good or bad. I am trying to break out of this thought pattern too.
I feel like I can't trust anyone except my boyfriend. It feels like everyone is either out to get me, have ulterior motives, or they are "bad people" in my mind. I know this thinking is flawed and I want help. But I don't know how to reframe my mind in a way that will stick. I always just assumed I was incredibly introverted but I feel like it's something more. Is being a misanthrope a mental illness itself? Or maybe it's a symptom of mental illness? I feel so trapped and I don't know how to escape. Whenever I go to therapy, I don't feel like I can be open. These walls I have built up just can't come down.
@frailtea
I'm so sorry about everything, I really am. I know how hard sexual assault can be, especially when you should technically be able to trust the person.
I honestly dont know how to feel. Theres nothing really going on in my life and I feel like its going to take so long to get through this until I am happy. I want to have my own house and career already instead of being in this teenage drama. Im tired of being bored at home. Im not good at making friends and all of my current ones dont get together often. My sister is so social and is out almost every night. I know Im not that type of person because Im an introvert and Im okay with that but I still feel kinda guilty for not doing more. I feel like Im slowly shutting down and my mental health is decreasing, which I know will be bad for me in the long run.
It helps venting like this but do I go to counseling?? Like I dont know what to do. I dont know how to act and feel. I feel like Im just not going anywhere and am bored with life.
@mellowunicorn hey! So, not saying you have to take it. But I felt this exact way when I was younger. Like EX-ACT! I say go to counseling! I didn't do that until now (SIX YEARS LATER) and I would have immensely benefitted from it when I was a teenager when I was feeling that way. It really only got worse for me as I got older and the "Adult-Life Drama/Trauma" started. Not trying to scare you or anything, because we all go through different things, even if the feelings are similarly felt. But hey, it can't hurt to try counseling. At least you would know if you like it or not, rather than just not going and wondering. If you can't afford one, find one of the counselors in your school that you like (I remember my high school had them sectioned off by last name and grade, however, if there is the one you like more, go to them regardless!!) Also, I do the therapy online here and it is extremely cheap in comparison to in-house visits to a counselor/therapist. I truly hope you start to feel better and can find great outlets for your boredom and emotions!
@atl13
thank you so much for the advice❤️❤️
I hate how I have been there for my friends when they've had panic attacks and I've calmed them down, but I hide away when I have one even though I know they can and will help. 
I have the feeling to binge eat and can't tell my parents or siblings about this. It's a secret that I have been hiding from them for over 4 months. Just want to cry.
I mentioned before about the troubles my brother is having in his marriage. It doesn't look good. But what's harder for me is, I can't really tell anyone about it. And I can't complain about him coming home with the dog every weekend either. It's hard getting a good night's rest with the dog in the house. He barks at night sometimes, and early in the morning. It's not like I can sleep in on the weekends much anyways, but still. Once the sleep is disturbed before my body clock wakes me up, it makes me feel like I didn't sleep well. He's going to be home to stay overnights even more now. He got demoted in his job, so he's only working 3 days a week, so for the other days, he'll be staying at our place. It will be hard when I'm working morning shifts, needing to sleep before 10pm, if dog barks after that time, it's going to affect my sleep for work the next day. I feel bad for him, but if he's staying from Thursday night to leaving after dinner on Monday. My Friday and Monday sleep won't be good. Not a very good way to start/end the week. I'm not looking forward to it, and that routine will be starting this week (with my brother). It's not a good year for him. First the wife, now with work~
Main issue is just how to handle care giver dress.