You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Im so stressed and tired and lonely right now like my parents are divorced now and i have to take care of my siblings and im tired of talking to just my girlfruend 24/7 shes the only person who consistently texts me and i always have to text my other friends first and theyre all busy with their own lives and stuff and it hurts because i feel like they dont even like me anymore and im only going to have one friend attending the same school as me but that hurts even more because we both tried out for the dance team and she was amazing like shes such a good dancer and my dance studio had to close down for good and i only started dancing in december and so we love dance and we tried out and we did great but i lost my footage and the gootage i had to send in i was crying my ass off and forgetting choreo and i couldnt have music because it was late at night and mh phone died while i was filming so i had to submit a shitty audition and i didnt get it and it hurts because i know im new to dance im 14 and only started dancing in December and i havent danced since May cause thats when auditions were and it hurts cause i love dance and i want to get into JYP Entertainment so so so badly im auditioning sometime next year and im scared cause im not as experienced and im not horrible at singing or rapping or dancing but im also not super good either and also money is an issue especially now that my parents are divorced and my siblings are also trying to do stuff and mine is the most expensive so it takes the back burner and i always feel bad about asking for things or money and i dont like my body either im 5'2" and 120 lbs and my tummys kinda squishy and my thighs kinda big and i get bloated easily and ive been trying to lose weight but ive been so tired and stressed and lonely and depressed like im a vegetarian i work out when im able to etc but its really hard and i get super discouraged seeing as my friends are all super pretty and either really strong or really skinny and also im a new Wiccan and im in the closet to my family and my friends like the only people who know irl are my aunt, uncle, sister, girlfriend, and two of my friends and then i have some internet friends who are also witches but im really scared about what would happen if my parents were to find out cause theyre Christian and believe the negative stereotypes and propaganda and were also starting school again soon and as far as we know the first 9 weeks will be online and im just worried about math and the workload in general cause im not very good at math like no matter what i do i just cant understand it and i try really hard i just cant understand it and i ended up crying and having panic attacks in the middle of classes before cause i cant handle all of the work my teachers give us like every year the work goes up by a lot a lot and i cant handle it and i can hardly concentrate on things anymore and im having more nightmares lately and im losing sleep and itsnot good and ive been having more binging episodes too and i hate i hate and im so done right now please whg cant i cry and why i cant i be happy anyway im sorry for wasting your time if you wanna talk about my issues we can but uh yeah sorry fir wastibg your time bye
@persistentSkies9904, you're not wasting aanyone's time on this website. We are all here to work through our problems.
@purpleTree4652 you sure?? Cause it always feels like in wasting peoples time when i talk about my problems.....
Also i forgot to add that Im genderqueer and im in the closet about that as well as my religious beliefs so uh thats fun.... tbh ive been considering hurting myself lately. Nothing to kill me but just to hurt me a bit here and a bit there..... i dont think id go through with it though
I google how much dose is fatal for everything in the medicine cabinet
@HappyDucky8
I hope it's just dark humour,because if you gonna do what i think you gonna do then i will suggest you stop right there and re-evaluate the circumstances that brought you here. Are they worth of making the deed that will end a chain of opportunities? Maybe it's difficult ,but you gotta struggle. When you are in the dark ,you will find light,but only after you search really hard. Maybe it's difficult but please try. I support you anyway i can
@Abeach02
i am finished here. I don't owe anyone any explanation or proof whether I tried or fought hard enough
@HappyDucky8
I'm sorry you feel that way.
I'm sorry we couldn't help you.
Please, if you're still hear, call a crisis hotline.
We don't want to see you go.
@chibihida
hotlines do nothing. Nothing can help me
@HappyDucky8
hey i get it. it's really hard. but do take time to think about it. i used to be extremely suicidal and almost went through with it a few times. i used to hurt myself because i felt like i couldn't deal with it. but, i took some time to really evaluate things, and i started to turn things around. im a lot better now, and i see so many opportunities waiting for me. i have a girlfriend whom i adore, im more happy with my body and how i look, i'm a lot happier in general. i'm even auditioning to be a kpop trainee next year if it's safe to travel again.
my mental health has been declining again for about the last year (my anxiety got really bad, and i had two breakdowns in a month), but i do still try hard to keep going. we want you to stay here. things will get better, i promise. i'm living proof of it. please just take some time to sit back and evaluate the situation. really dive deep into it. if you practice witchcraft (which i doubt) do some shadow work. try to take care of yourself. find healthy ways of coping with the situation. i know things aren't good now, but eventually they will be so much better.
i hope you're still here to read this. if you aren't, i'm so sorry we couldn't help, and i hope you find happiness in the next life. if you are, please take my advice and dive deep into the why and try to find healthy outlets/coping mechanisms. we love you.
@persistentSkies9904
thanks.
I could quit smoking but I couldn
@sympatheticKitten8138 I actually just combine the two. . .Zyn Coffee flavor😂😂😂
@suzanne1979
haha wonderful lol
but seriously though, three months ago I quit smoking. I still havent had one puff. Everyone says that this is an incredible accomplishment.
But even for someone like me, coffee was too addictive to give up ...🤣🤣
@sympatheticKitten8138 I gave up smoking with the kids. Then realized they drove me bonkers, so started back as a closet smoker. My husband finally told me that I wasn't great at hiding it. He gave me a Zyn to try and I never picked up another one. Coffee I could give up, but nicotine is my vice. I guess it could be worse.
And congrats on three months. Giving up smoking is super hard :) Did you go cold turkey?
Listen, I went from damn near suicidal to worse after texting the crisis line. I felt so ignored, dismissed and worthless when I was already feeling like shit. I hate reaching out for help and getting slapped in the face instead. I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I'm trapped in a relationship with someone who will never truly love me or see me as I really am. I am trapped with someone who doesn't have a clue how much they hurt me. I'm so tired of being tossed around. Maybe I deserve to be lonley and miserable. I'm so tired of having to work so hard to be understood. I hate this and I'm sock of this pain.
@BillionBeez you do not deserve to be lonely and miserable. i haven't had the same experience as you have, but i can relate with the part where you hate asking for help. i am not in my best state either, but if you ever want someone to vent to or talk to, i'm here. i hope things get better for you. all the love x
I don't know what's wrong. how can i be happy? how can i feel okay? i haven't been doing my assignments, and they have piled up. i was so stressed sometime ago that i couldn't sleep. now i just can't bring myself to care about anything. i just do things because i have to. i wake up, brush my teeth, have my breakfast and sit for my online classes. i have no motivation whatsoever. even if i try to watch one of the shows i really like, i don't enjoy it. i'm just numb i guess but sad too. i haven't cried properly for a long time but i don't think i should. the person i live with doesn't care about my feelings at all. incidentally, i am also a listener and i have been helping out people for hours from the past 5 days. the person i live with asked me to give advice to someone close to her yesterday night and i said i couldn't because i had been doing the same thing for a member for too many hours yesterday. she tried to guilt trip me instead. i don't even know anything anymore. i wish i had someone who would understand and support me.
Life sucks. At least for me. I am beginning to believe that whatever I do,i will never be considered like a" worthy" person or a person important to someone. I feel angry at myself for not making good friends,for not doing the things I always wanted to do. I feel like I have wasted my childhood and adolescence away. Now that I'll be leaving for college, I'm so anxious ,because how will I get through this? Will I meet good people? Will I finish with good grades? I hate myself for being the way I am, I am nobody's favourite,not even my mom's. I just want to be left alone in peace.
I feel stressted, and kind of crazy, ya know?
What do I do? I feel so sad. I feel lost, and scared to.
My husband is a selfish douche. That is all.