You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
I have so much to say yet so little energy sometimes I just end up bored or dazed. I really want to be festive yet I have days where I just feel like I'm just doing the same thing..
I can't believe i'm about to move across the country and I don't want to. Not once in my life have I ever moved when I didn't want to. And this move is so far away. I want to move to oregon. That is where we were supposed to mo////////////ve to. The family I live with suddenly decided they want to move across the country instead. They are both f'd up in the head. She tells me that she avoids reality and is an alcoholic and drug addict and has no intention of quitting. He doesn't want to do anything so he does what she wants, unless of course he disagrees with it. Then he gives her hell and throws a temper tantrum. Then she gives in and does what his temper tantrum demands. This is the family I live with. I can't stand them. Oh, I didn't mention that they urinavbgte in the bathroom with the door open. I have asked them to stop. They refuse. I am too poor or I would move on my own. I can't stand this situation that I am in. I am getting ready to move across the country with people I don't want to be with and no one is forcing me. I can't stand this situation I am in.
I'm fucking want to talk
@pissedoffpissedoff and I'm replying back to myself like anidiot
I can't take it anymore
I think my mom and my mother in law are talking About me behind my back but I don't know how to approach the subject with them without sounding paranoid. Its really messing with my head.
Words are only words. You’re living your life while they have no right to judge. Don’t be paranoid and think about all the positive things in your life.
I'm just so annoyed with myself. Why can't I get up as soon as I'm awake? I can't even get myself to draw anymore everything feels like a chore. I wish I could do things that I used to love. I feel like I don't find joy in anything anymore.
Maybe try to listen to your favorite song before sleeping? It helps with better mood.
I- I cant take it anymore.
ITS ALL MY FAULT... EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT
IM SO DUMB, USELESS AND NOT WORTH ANYTHING
@Perfectlyimperfect12340 I don’t know what you’ve done to make yourself think you aren’t worth anything but you’re wrong. You are worth a lot. You matter. Even if you’ve made mistakes you’re still here, still deserving of kindness and happiness, and you should never let anyone, including yourself, tell you otherwise.
YOURE NOT DUMB AND YOURE PRECIOUS. DONT BLAME YOURSELF AND ITS GOING TO BE BETTER.
It's so weird. I think I feel lonely. Actually scratch that, I need to recreate some goals and do them. I need a fun project or effective project to look towards to.
Sounds like a practical idea. How you doing now Bear
Alot of days I wake up and spend most of the day trying to convince myself that I should live. That I matter. That its going to be ok. But I never get to live like that. By the time my mind has become a little quiet the day is over and im tired. I wake up to the same cycle. Im drained with nowhere to find happiness. Im really trying but why is it so hard to try to be happy? To be ok?
@Lumbeyl
Yes, it is hard. I know how you feel. One thing I'm learning throughout this difficulty is that our happiness cannot depend on our circumstances. Otherwise it is never consistent, and it never lasts long. Life is worth living. There are good things in life, and they are worth fighting for. If you give up, you admit defeat. I know its hard. Lets get through this together. You are not alone. Know that there is someone here who believes in you. You've got this. God bless, and stay safe. 🙂
@Lumbeyl- I totally understand how you feel- especially this year. If we simply quit searching for the elusive happiness that escapes us- perhaps the realization that in order to be happy one must experience the opposite- sadness, woe and lonliness. Each day we make it through will get us to the other side. Take care.
life is beautiful