You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
About a year ago, I had a miscarriage and my partner and I were devastated. We had been trying for about a year and a half, and when I finally got pregnant we were really excited and happy. I went to the gynecologist and after some blood work and ultrasounds, I was diagnosed with a blighted ovum. My gynecologist suggested that I get a D&C, but I just couldn't afford the surgery, so I was forced to wait until I naturally had a miscarriage. This was during the height of the pandemic, so I had to go to my gynecologist appointments alone, because my partner wasn't allowed in with me. It was awful. The experience was terrible, it's horrible knowing that your baby is gone, but your body hasn't recognized it yet, I felt like I was stuck in limbo. When I finally did have the miscarriage, it was the most terrifying, painful and depressing thing to go through, and once again my partner wasn't allowed with me into the hospital, so I had to go through the whole thing alone. I've never been the same after, but I refused to acknowledge my depression over the situation. I just brushed it aside and told myself and everyone around me that I was ok, when I really wasn't. Recently I had a breakdown and finally admitted to my partner how I had been feeling. It helped to get it off my chest, but I did some stuff I'm not too proud of, so now I'm dealing with feelings of guilt and depression. I've been getting better, but I still get waves of sadness about it. I want to have hope and maybe try again to conceive in the future, but I'm still not over what happened.
I'm confused.
The setting is during nationalization. Railroads and coal industries were bought baby the govt to control. Some of the good things it did was avg the transportation fares so riders could ride at a low cost. It also drove pollution and smog down becyz the govt controlled the industries and vehicles that caused pollutants. Now let's get to the gold at the end we hope to find at the end if the rainbow. Here's what I want you to know about tge main character and changed in setting as he takes the train to Bath. He starts at London, busy city, capital of England where, train stops here like vta, bath country side, peaceful, baths. What are they? Boarding houses where people usually men stay because of work. Everyday sit bnb. Single. En capable. Old spinsters odd neuritic
My future looks extremely depressing and scary . Wish I could just stop all this . ☹️☹️☹️.
I’m tired.
What sucks the most is when you want to rant and there’s no words to describe how you feel now.
@bluePond2373 I understand all to well exactly what you mean.
At 28 , I have absolutely nothing to look upto in life . Absolutely nothing ☹️☹️
hellooo! i have felt so depressed lately, and i think listening has really helped me improve my mood. i guess putting my own issues aside and letting others confide in me is a decent coping mechanism..!
Tonight was the night my stepmother decided to verbally abuse me beacuse I didn't clean the kitchen. I hate this so much, I'm an adult and she continually treats me like a child. I can't even tell her I don't feel she's allowed to talk to me that way becuase I feel she'd kick me out of the house and I'd be homeless. I don't know what to do besides continually cry and be miserable.
Okay, it's like 9 at night. I have two things I need to finish:
Take care of myself (shower and put on a acne patch to get rid of this hurtful pimple)
Mindful meditation. Because I need to clear my mind. I need clarity. I sat down for too long. / Need exercise
Add pictures and information to the slide deck so I can present it on Friday. CRAPPP I HAVE TO PRESENT.
Find out my SPPEECH/INSTRUCTION I give in the AM for 12 minutes.
Very frustrated because I need help, but have 0 access to therapy. I can't afford it, and I live in a conservative/remote area (I'm from a very liberal city - talk about culture shock) that doesn't have the mental health resources necessary for living. Over the past few months, I've spoken to every single therapist within a 50 mile radius (which is kinda unattainable because I don't drive), and they either are not taking new clients, or do not accept my insurance. I can't pay out of pocket because I'm not getting paid a livable wage. No one here offers pro-bono counselling. My insurance covers 7 days of inpatient at $3 a day, but if I do that, I'll lose my job (and I can't put my mom through that emotional turmoil again). I haven't been to a therapist in 10 years - back when I was a minor & everything was covered because it was pediatrics. I need help. This country's health system sucks. It makes me want to k word myself because that's easier than actively trying to get help and make myself better. I just want to feel & be better. I'm trying so hard.
