You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
Feeling like I have made many mistakes and I will do the same things over and over again no matter where or what I do. I don't feel like I have grown at all and I am 20. I wanted to do something useful for my family but all I did was make them even more disappointed in me. I am disappointed of myself too. I don't have anything worthwhile going on for me,no job no love life,not anything. I feel more like a grown child instead of an adult. I don't know if I can keep going on like this.
@Abeach02 I'll tell you at 24, that you are essentially a grown teenager until your 30s. Being an adult is just being a teenager but pretending you know what you're doing, paying some bills and trying to hold down a job haha.
Easier said than done, but getting a basic job can be a start, even if it's stacking shelves or flipping burgers. It will get you used to work life and get you some socialising on the side when you get colleagues. It will also mean you get money to maybe do some hobbies on the side, to get more social stuff in there. But don't let the pressure crush you that you have to be doing something. Late teens is weird; the world suddenly opens up to you, like you've been in school and then suddenly you can be or do anything in the whole world, and man that can be overwhelming. Taking a little time to narrow down what you might want to do is a good way to start, even if your criteria is just "how far am I willing to/can I travel? Do I want to work indoor/outdoor?"
Having an idea definitely helps with the stress, rather than having lots of drive to do something but not knowing where to point it! You're not useless, you're just taking your time and that's okay.
I'm feeling a lot of inner pain. Mental pain sucks. I hate it surrounding me. I want to rid it from my mind. I want it to stop.i don't know how. I haven't tried any coping technique.
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RN is DIFFICULT. It's scary. My eyes feel teary. Today was exhausting. It makes me sad that I feel uncomfortable.
RN I feel my soft bed. It is nice.
Ive always been there for my friends but whenever I need help I just get silence. For one of my best friends I've been there during suicidal crisis and helped him get through it, possitive talking, comforting and erasing the self-harm mindset off of him... But right now I'm in a depressive cycle and all I get is silence or silly and stupid spam-memes. I'm alone.
@pesimisticOwl007 I understand. I think overall it's been hard for me to see other people receiving support and comfort when they are in distress, even in movies and things, because I end up thinking about my own lack of support. Sending you hugs, or if you don't like hugs, well wishes.
So, okay, here is what is going on...again...I may be moving across country...again.
Prior to finding that out, I was actually feeling good for 1/2 day. I completed my grad school application. I felt like if I was accepted into grad school, that my life might actually turn into a life worth living. That was last wednesday.
thursday i got the rug pulled out from under me...again. The people I clean for, told me they are moving across the country. There goes a large part of my income with them. I was going to pay for school myself.
I could have graduated in 2 years.
Now I am just able to pay my bills. I can't save enough to pay for school, and if I need it to survive, the money I had saved has to go toward my survival.
The clients have offered to move me with them. I'm guessing they see the opportunity to have a free maid.
I cry every day. I thought I had my life in a good place and that I could actually turn my life around. I was happy for 1/2 day.
I don't think I'm supposed to be, but I will fight to live so I can support Chloe, my cat.
I am just feeling really anxious! And it is driving me CRAZY!
I am struggling with feeling a combination of being mad and sad.
We just had a big anniversary and no one acknowledged it. I thought our kids might have a get together for us but nope! They didn't even mention it. And I know my husband and I agreed to not buy gifts but I still ordered him his favorite dessert from a local bakery! He could have wrote me a love letter or even made me dinner but nope!! Am I just expecting to much??
So today I find out something I have wanted so badly is going to cost more than i anticipated and I feel like he isn't being supportive. He isn't even saying anything!
Am I being selfish?? I support everything he wants even if it's out of our budget!
I really struggle with anxiety and these emotions are adding to it!
My m-fing sister just told me how she wants rid of me. But this is the same person who says I can live with her. She sent me an email going on about how I am a bother to her and hold her back and how I have 'fed up her life, but she is the one who says she will devote the rest of her life to helping me. I hate her for this. She says she loves me and says that I ruined her life. How can you love someone and want rid of them at the same time. That is not love. She is not willing to get help for her mental problems. She is not willing to listen to me talk, but instead wants to talk and talk and talk. I hate her for this. I woke up and the first thing i thought of is her saying she wants rid of me. Then I opened an email from her and she went on about how I am her problem. Then she called me to say she means everything she wrote, but knows she hurt my feelings and is sorry. F her.