One difficult life situation I am facing right now is....

I currently hate the job that I am in. I work in a bookstore because I absolutely love to read, but between my snobby coworkers, the rude customers, and the unhelpful management, this job has drained me emotionally. Obviously I know that every job has its challenges, and some you just have to work through. But I have only been working there for five months and I cant remember a shift where I didnt want to bawl my eyes out and quit on the spot. My anxiety disorder has ramped up x10000 since I started working there, so its not good for my mental health at all. The money is great though and I am afraid that when I quit, I wont be able to find another source of income like that.

Found out that the guy i am dating for 4 years is already married and have a son

self harm and depression

Everything in life. Worrying alot. Christmas coming up. Starting to get presents, people who matter in my life, my mum, sisters and dad. Buying something for niece. Money and lunch.

Work too and if I will get time for myself cuz been long week .Glad weekends here

My father is comparing me with my cousin she is an architect like me .she is younger than me, there is about 5 or 6 years between us. I studied architecture in a governmental faculty, and she in a private faculty .I spent 7 years in my college and I couldn't start my career till now so I started post studies in the college to make myself busy. My cousin spent five years in the college and started her career immediately after graduation and my father and my brother said that she is announcing about her work and she is a freelancer beside her job. I can't be like her , I can't work for people who couldn't find the difference between the civil engineer and the architect. Everybody sees me as a loser and I feel deficit. What have I do?

Every year, it seems, I get real depressed during the major holidays. This year, it is no different. I am estranged from 95% of my family because they are abusive, or have just chosen to follow the super-abusive matriarch of our family (my mother, who is my main living abuser) and leave me in dust. My mother's tyranny never ends. She even influences my grown daughter against me. I have had a very rough year, and if I didn't have someone depending on me, I'd probably opt out of this life. My mom has been telling people since I was 7 (more than 40 years) that I am crazy so they won't believe me that she is an abuser (physical, sexual, mental, verbal, emotional). People just believe her and not me. I have complex PTSD because of her and my dad (who is deceased now). Since I can't die without putting someone in major jeopardy, self-harm is all I have to release the pain and pressure.

The problems in my mind I haven't dealt with yet and my anxiety cuz everything's been busy recently with Xmas so need time for myself and with work not had time to chill out on own

I made a search in my chat contacts to find anyone to talk with, but I didn't find anyone available even people who used to annoy me unfollowed me . I am know all alone and I don't know what to do .Please help right now .

Being the primary care giver for my mother while still struggling with my own health.