One difficult life situation I am facing right now is....
i dont feel like im apart of my family and everything they are doing is confirming that
@thehashslingingslasher thats how I feel to my dad wanted me agreed with his friend placing me on a group he me somewhere unknown I never know its going on for two months
it never happened
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My fiancé is working third shift and it is a huge reduction in time we get to spend together. On top of it, we just found out the dog has cancer, we just lost a very cherished mother cow on the farm, and I have to start a new job this weekend because I cant pay my bills anymore.
I got another foot tattoo on my other foot in late April of this year. Two weeks later my foot swelled and became red and hot. Over the next several months I dealt with recurring "flare ups" mysterious ankle rashes, biopses, various medications (from primary and specialsit Doctors), blood work, and an increased level of anxiety I'd never experienced before. No one knew what was really wrong with me. I had such odd symptoms all over my body that were possibly connected or not. I spent three months going to a Dermatologist who just kept trying different basic remeides and umbrella medications with little to no change. The problem spread to the other foot and eventually to my hands over this time. At seemingly random moments in the day, my hands or my feet will become very warm and puff up a little. While the flare ups have calmed down since the onset over 6 months ago, I still live every day with this anxiety I developed about why my body did this and if things are only going to go downhill from here. I finally saw a foot doctor after the dermatologist ran me arounf the park for nothing. She had me do an EMG and lo and behold. I have polysenory neuropathy, possibly inherited from my grandma. This could be the main problem or just another symptom of something more serious that's not developed yet. I am terrified of getting another diagnosis from the neurologist I have yet to see. And on top of everyhting, I am now a person with certified high anxiety. What a simple decision I made. I don't understand why my life took this turn.
@StarSlinger22 Hi star i also suffer from high anxiety and as well have a similar issue you have. Was not the tattoo but my body. A few months ago I was dating someone I thought had loved me and things were moving quickly I had alot of things already going wrong in my life and thought finally something to come good. I moved in with him for 3 months and I could say it was not what I thought it to be. Drinking and smoking weed every night of everyday I didnt see what was going on infront of me until I finally left. He forced me into 3 sums, treated me like I was just a sex toy, making me do things I have never done and to Afraid to say no. Hes given me drugs that I had no idea was in my body at the time and he made it seem was ok. The last day I was there he pushed a ecstacy pill inside my but after already saying no more than once that I didnt want to swallow it. I let my guard down and trusted he wouldnt try to force me into it. Let alone put it up my but. I was instantly high and have never really taken drugs like this before. I started panicking chugging down 8 bottles of water while he kept getting on top of me I couldnt move and I was shivering. He started looking up the symptoms, the moment I saw his face I knew hes never done this before he started panicking and thinking I wouldnt notice. Calling his mom telling her he was going grocery shopping, and seeing if his roommates were in the house, started asking me for my password to my phone and I was terrified I thought I was ei
@StarSlinger22i was either going to die or he would kill me. After a while he started to calm down after nothing bad happened he went to sleep and left me laying there. I couldnt move and I felt my body raiding out. I was able to feel the drug take over my legs then my stomach I was so afraid of I didnt move it would take hold of my heart so i would shake my legs. He gave me that pill at 5am I was still high till 7pm, when I was able to finally move I texted my friend to come get me. I stayed with him crying afraid I would die, still high. Ever since then I've had huge anxiety of fear of death. Either my organs with fail or something bad will happen to me from what I've done. I've felt disgusted with myself and a panicky of my soul was doomed. To feel helpless internally and my surroundings is the worst feeling ever. Now I am unable to work I've had to take a temporary leave I have a nervous tick of shaking my legs while I lay down and I'm always terrified that something's wrong with my body. I'm glad that your were able to cope and I understand some of what you were going threw I hope you get better and always remeber urs just anxiety it's not real.
@Rosequartz041
Oh, my goodness, RoseQuartz! That thing of a boy used you to no end. I'm surprised you're still alive because of the sound of your story, he was planning on killing you. I'm so happy for you getting out of there and surviving!
@Rosequartz041 you are so incredibly strong, I am so proud of you for finding the strength to go through that situation. Thank you for sharing your story, I know you will have given hope to others reading this who have been through something similar.
My friend and mother of 3 was murdered in march, my grandma died in April and I am struggling with mental illness.
@MomKelsey2 I'm sorry for your lost and I truly hope you get better. That is a terrible lost and a huge burden on your shoulders I truly hope you get peice and help to cope
My addiction and relapse have caused a situation where I may lose my job.
Im scared as hell. But I am choosing to stay clean during this and know that whatever happens tomorrow, I cant control it tonight.
ttrying to deal with my. borderline pd and ptsd and drug problems even Though its hard ill do, it 
At night I hallucinate the doctor who molested me when I was little. Right before I go to sleep paranoid thoughts will swarm my mind, I will see his faceless being standing in the corner of my room, and hear voices saying terrible things about me. I haven't been able to sleep at my house for days now and I can only fall asleep during my classes at school, which has caused my grades to fail. Other hallucinations follow me around, increasing my paranoia and anxiety, I feel exhausted all of the time, and I don't know how to cope with it. I don't know why or when things started to progress like this, but it seems its been a long time coming. I don't feel safe, ever.
Dealing with my depression and hatred of men.
My depression and anxiety that is largely due to school and family issues. Ive also had difficulties because im afraid Im going to start to lose the people that I love.
I am trying to get pregnant and its not working. My hormone tests have shown that I will have a difficult time conceiving and Im really scared. Im getting acupuncture, taking herbs and vitamins and thinking about it all the time. Most of my friends have kids and they dont understand, they mostly tell me to just relax and it will happen which is really hard to hear.