Lost and Scared
So recently my health ohysicallly and mentally has gotten worse and i am struggling so much, I have had to start stepping away from many things and it doesn't make me feel great because i feel i should keep doing them anway. I have had a really rough time accepting what is happening and i have now been re reffered to the rheumatology department, and my vitamin D has dropped back down to as low as it should never be... so ive got to haave high dose of supplements. Its really affecting me mentally and my anxiety and depression is suffering to the point i have relapesed in Self harm after being clean for a long time and i am gutted and angry at myself. I am not one to really open up about much anymore but i guess im just feeling so scared and lost and i dont know what to do...
Im sorry for being a downer and making this post... but i just im scared, im sorry everyone... I hope you all are doing okay, and have a great day :)
@JoyIntoDarkness
I'm sorry you are struggling. You have a lot to deal with. It is not easy to loose so much. It's a process one goes through, different stages of grief.
You are not defined by what you lost or your relapse, you are who you are and a relapse doesn't change who you are.
You are not alone. There are many of us who also grieve.
@energeticCircle9867
Thankyou means alot to not be alone x
@JoyIntoDarkness
I am really glad that you came here to share that you are struggling. You should not have to feel alone in this, we are here for you. I can't make it better for you but I hope I can support you while you go through it. I have had an experience with low vitamin D, and I take supplements. It was pure misery when it was low, so I can relate. It affected my mental health a lot too, depression, anxiety, all of that. I am not saying it was exactly the same, I can only imagine what you are going through.
It is a real loss when you have to give things up, and we grieve. I wish I could do the things I used to be able to do. I still hold hope for improvement, I never give that up. Love and acceptance seem to be the way through this, as the trail of bread crumbs that leads out of the forest. You are loveable and precious even when you self harm. You are 100% acceptable just as you are, every bit of you. You will get through this, it is not going to be easy, and you are not alone. <3
@1Marg1
This means so much thankyou I really needed this tonight thankyou X
@JoyIntoDarkness When you're sick something has to give, so it's good to let some things go for now. I do understand the guilt of not keeping it all up, but even people without chronic illnesses have acute illnesses and emergencies that pop up.
Things do get better too, even if your health doesn't improve understanding what's going on and learning what you're able to handle makes it easier to manage. For now prioritize, recognize what you need to let go as you can't handle it for now (maybe later you will be able to) and get through the important stuff.
There's no need to apologize to us, we're here to support each other.
@AffyAvo
affy thankyou so much like you ahve no idea how much it means to me I know we go far back now which is kinda scary because it just feel like I should be better now and IM not idk it's just difficult to process X
I love this community so much!
I send you all lots of hugs (if that's okay with you)!
You all matter, please be kind to yourself, always!
@kindSoul10
*Hugs back*
Tell me this isnt discrimination?
I am in a disabled apartment and Im disabled.
I have until the 10 th to pay my rent. Today is the 8th. I understand the weekend Is coming up they want to charge me a 10 late fee for paying it Monday which is the 10th. When I called her she said
if you dont like it move and anybody with common sense would pay it before today bc the weekend coming up being its due on the 10th
I find it funny they did this bc today I went to the police station to report their maintenance man for always coming in my house while Im in the bathroom.
When I asked the manager to please allow me a 30 min notice before he comes in so he doesnt keep walking in while Im in the tub or on the toilet she said when I signed the lease I signed that theyre allowed to come in whenever they want. Please help me understand am I being harassed and discriminated??????? I wish I could afford to move :(
@raspberryNest1872 I feel like her if anybody had common sense comment was very rude and possibly discrimination! I have mental issues and is been sick all week while taking care of my sick child. My rent isnt even officially late while all this is happening! I have been having mental break downs over this place and how Im treated.
@raspberryNest1872 I don't know where you live but in different countries there are places where you can get legal advice for free or discounted price. Maybe you can connect with such places?
If anyone with physical disabilities like multiple sclerosis or being in wheelchair need listener can tex me. I will give ma best to make you feel better.❣
