Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
Like fasting until I know what is going on with my friend who is in the hospital on the opposite side of the country... And her parents won't talk about her to me.
They tell me she is in the hospital and then ignoring me when I ask if she is OK or ask for any details...
@alexaners7734 - Why does your friend being in the hospital and you not knowing whats going on necessitate hurting your own health? I know that it can be hard to cope with stressors like that, but it sounds from the way you've written it like you are using this as a way to punish others, but it actually punishes you, not them, and that's a scary thing.
@Anomalia no, just a way to get some form of control in my life.
@alexaners7734 I'm in the same position.
Missed breakfast, so all I am having today is a monster energy drink and a ensure light protein shake.
listened to my cravings but didn't go into overeating
@FuturePsychologist2 - That's fantastic! When your body craves something, it's often for a reason, and listening to that craving is a healthy choice, but it's equally important not to go overboard and it sounds like you were able to find a great balance. Well done! :)
guys i took less laxatives than i usually do and the urge was real and i somehow overcame it i'm so proud of myself
@FuturePsychologist2
Omg thats so good! Even though you took laxatives you limited it, which is a step forward. Congrats 💞💞
I honestly feel like giving up. I just want to be normal. I can't say without feeling anxious. I gained a few pounds back, but I'm constantly beating myself up for it. I feel like such a failure. I can't do anything right. I'm hardly sleeping, I know my attitude is terrible...I'm exhausted. Everyone who wants to help me is forcing me...which is stressing me out.. a lot. I feel so alone. I'm firing my therapist today... and I'm going to start looking for a new one.. I might not even go at all. Nothing is helping. I'm the problem.
I always do great until the end of the day and then my binge eating feels out of control. I hate going to bed with that disappointment and shame. But I am working on being nice to myself and not so strict on my body. My binge eating developed about 1 year after some drastic weight loss amd strict exercise regime.
My biopsy is tomorrow and I've been panicking all week. I haven't been eating... I've been drinking to numb my pain. I've lost so much weight these last 2 weeks I can barely walk... they might not even do the biopsy tomorrow because I'm such a mess. I might have cancer.. I'm just freaking out. How can they expect me to eat when I'm having panic attacks about my biopsy? I'm so stressed. I'm terrified of needles.. I don't know what I'm going to do.
Just feeling super bummed this week and rolling back into old bingey habits ....not too sure if its ED to blame or just a general low mode.... maybe a combo of both ....so i just needed to vent somewhere as i feel crap and i dont know why or if i want to blame ED or crappy mood . happy friday all xo
I was fine for years everyday was good. Then something clicked. I was fitting into a smaller size pants for the first time in ages and I like it...a bit too much so I started aiming for the size below...you know how it goes. I'm not at the lowest point I was but I'm struggling to keep my mind focused.
Enjoying hunger pangs today.