Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel bad. This evening i must eat smth. And i cant throw up that w s terrieble
I know it can feel so terrible to put food in your body when you don't want to, but it is so important to nourish yourself. Try to think of it as energy that allows you to think, run, laugh, write, etc. and remember that you can do this!
I feel acctuallyin control, even my weekend was so hard emotionally....
Yesterday I ate 815 cals and today 500... i know is not so healthy, but it keeps me safe from bingin.
I'm sorry you had such a rough weekend - have you been able to talk to anyone about that yet? Sometimes processing the other things going on in your life can help you feel calmer and more in control so you don't need to restrict or binge to feel alright. There are lots of great listeners on here who would be happy to chat if you want to talk through any of it. Take care of yourself and stay safe.
I feel like shit. I struggle with eating disorder since couple of years right now. For more than a year I dealt with it pretty well but lately it has started to be a huge problem for me again. I eat when I'm feeling down which is most of the time right now.
@marysiaisintrouble - I'm sorry you've been feeling down so much lately. It can get really overwhelming when you feel like you have no relief from that, and it can definitely trigger your eating disorder and make things worse. Have you been able to reach out to anyone - in your life or on here - to talk about how you're feeling? Talking about what's making you feel so down might help lighten your burden and make things a little easier on you. Take care
Day 2 is in the books! Now let's see if I can last all of tomorrow without finding or thinking of something to get me to purge, I got this...hopefully!!!
Yesterday was awful and i cut myself..today i texted my mum about my bulimia(yeah im not too strong to tell it into her face) we're going to the therapist as soon as possible..it will be hard but not impossible
@lostineatingdisorder - I am so unbelievably proud of you for talking to your mom about this. Telling someone is so hard and I know that took a lot of courage and strength. Good luck with your appointment - this is a huge step in your recovery and I know you can do it!
I made it through day 3! I'm excited that I've come this far. My stomach is killing me today so I'm just trying to stay focus with the goal on hand.
@decembernight0608 - WOOHOO!!! Congrats on making it to three days - that's so awesome! I hope you're as proud of yourself as I am of you! Keep fighting and stay strong :)
That's so amazing to make it three days, don't sell yourself short, you're amazing!
Haven't over eaten today or yesterday!! I'm so happy!
Yay!!! That's fantastic, great job and keep fighting! :)
A bit disappointed, made through day 3 but ended up purging, but I'm not going to give up my days are improve I'm starting to eat normal again and starting to feel better about myself physically.
Love love love hearing that you're starting to feel better about yourself! As hard as it is to face the disappointment of breaking your cycle, you can see that each time you make it a little bit longer and each time is just a little bit easier. You are headed down the right path and you are making so much progress. So impressed with your strength and determination!
Today's just a blah day once again I made it to the 3 day for but ended up relapsing so today just feels more worse than others because I feel like maybe I'll never get better from this. I'm going to try some tips that I got from a listener this week in hopes that it helps because right now I just feel pathetic and gross even though I know I shouldn't because I have made progress with going 3 1/2 days without purging so I'm going to keep going and going until I get past day 3 even though right now I feel useless.
I know how frustrating and painful it can be to feel stuck, but recovery isn't a straight path. It curves, there are boulders in the way that you have to go around, and sometimes you have to double back and start again, but every piece of it is progress. If you made it to day 3 before purging, that means you had two days that you didn't! How impossible was that just a month ago? Even if you stay at the 3 day mark for a little while, you're still building your recovery toolkit, learning to manage some of the feelings, etc. And your determination (which is evident from your posts) will keep pushing you forward to hit 4, 5, and 6 days with time. You can do this!
I feel so tired and hungry. I have had nightmares aboit food and a friend of mine dieing . I wish I could eat normally like everybody else.. but I'm just too scared
@Shallan - I'm sorry you're feeling so scared right now - it sounds like you have a lot going on, and that can be really overwhelming. Do you feel like you have people you can reach out to for support and to talk about this? Either friends or family, or a listener here? Take care, sweetie
