Eating Disorder Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel like i need a break from myself, a break from therapy, a break from life. I'm going in circles. I binged and purged like mad yesterday, now I feel I must not eat for days. My face looks bloated... I just feel miserable. My work bought everyone food, and I'm too scared to go in and get some. I don't want to throw up. I'm coughing up blood. I haven't had my period in 2 months now. I need a vacation from everything. I wish I could break down and cry, but instead I'm avoiding everything. I'm hoping to just wake up one day and be normal again. It's sad that I can't even remember what normal is or feels like.
ed has been driving me INSANE!!!!!!!!!! :(
I feel good today. I spoke to my doctor about what happened with my former therapist, and he was relieved that I told him. (I didn't tell him about missing my last 2 periods...I know I should have). He said that as long as I'm looking for one, and trying to take care of myself, that he was going to support my decision. I didn't think it would go that way..I really thought he would be angry. I started going to aba anonymous...and it wasn't so bad. I felt they could really relate. I forget that you're really not alone. I just wish I could reach out like the other girls... I don't know why I'm so nervous about doing so.
@Redheadbaker7206 - I'm so glad to hear that your doctor is being supportive and understanding! It's important to find someone who is actually able to help and who you feel is a good fit for you, and sometimes that takes a while to find, but continuing to look is an important step in the process.
Bloated and miserable.
@FrozenCloud - Sending you a big *hug*. That's a tough feeling to have, but it's also one that will fade with a bit of time, so I'm hoping you feel better now and are continuing to fight your disorder and fight for your health! :)
@Anomalia Thank you so much! :)
sick from not eating.
@alexaners7734
Sorry you feel weak . Have you considered seeking professional advice? Sometimes we need help with the challenges we come across to. :)
@lovingLynx89 no $$$ or insurance....
I feel broken and lonely. I feel like giving up.
pi$$ed! so, therefore i have lost my appitiet for breakfast....and since im not eating breakfast, :) :( i will have 2 fast all day long!
@alexaners7734 - I disagree! Missing breakfast is one meal and doesn't need to be an indicator of the rest of your day. Each meal is a new decision point and what happened before or what happens after isn't important - it's about making a decision for your health right then, right there. You can do this - you can choose health.
I feel unsatisfied unless I have a good wife, a cute daughter and a great job. It's me. I expect a lot but I don't stay well with me. I'm worried for some sickness mines and my daughter and wife too and I feel like if life took me to something that I never wanted. I have obesity too. I just turn around and I have a great life I don't know if that one was I wanted to me. I work lot and sometimes I feel me an slave because I can't stop because I have to pay food, pills, home services and etcetera. I am a person who takes psychological treatment and psychiatric too against anxiety and depression. Sometimes I feel good sometimes not. My doctors said that sometime before I lost the will and wish for living a wonderful life. I'm trying but sometimes I feel I can't. What do u think about this?
I was feeling super motivated to recover, but the second I ate the motivation was gone. Now I'm unsure I want to recover because I don't want to feel this way. It's so easy to want to recover before you eat
@selfdisciplinedBanana6920 - It's so true - the hardest part about recovery is holding onto the determination to do it! Is there a way that you can remind yourself when you're feeling that way of all the reasons recovery is worth it? Whether that's literally having a list you go over or talking to someone at those times who can help you remember and support you?
not good at all. that horrible heavy post-binge feeling settled earlier and i knew i had to purge but my brother was in the bath so by the time i got in i could barely cough up more than blood and bile. i feel huge and greedy. i should'nt have eaten at all.
@overthinker02 hope your okay if you need a chat feel freee to message me
