Being A Parent

*Tearing Flow*

As a kid I knew my family was torn, the women in my family spoke about it in a manner to keep us strong yet were we really dealing with the issues of our pain?? No. Now as an adult eye am breaking these cycles with my daughter and it is hard since I have alwYs been the outcast and still loved yes, just in diff ways. For the fact I am an entrepreneur before my older sister I was looked at diff. My aunt always saw my worth and eye have to remember that fully. Now that my older sister is doing it she is praised. I am now breathing through not looking for validation and still showing luv. Yes my feelings are a bit bruised yet they shall heal. Now raising my daughter and co-parenting which no one has done for real I made it my promise to make sure my daughters father will stay consistent in her life. It gets wild cuz it was an abusive relationship and I still fought for them to stay connected through it all. Since I did not have that bond growing up with my dad. Some days are perfect and other days are cloudy asf!!!! I do my best to keep it flowing and most days I do not want to tlk to my family cuz it is all noise. So eye rather send love and keep my day flowing. It does get better I need a vacay frfr to fully decompress from all of this. Mama needs a break 👏🏾