I don’t how to even look at him anymore
I am 3 months postpartum, having postpartum depression, not feeling like I’m good enough nor provide enough for my baby and now I come to find out that my partner cheated on me for 3rd time and is still doing it. I found make up on his shirt (I don’t wear make up) Tuesday and the day before caught him at his ex’s house. At this point I don’t know how to look at him without being reminded of everything he has done. How can you love someone and still do so many things to hurt them. And to myself how can I allow myself to love him to the point that I stay. I don’t even let him touch me anymore. I feel disgusted knowing he comes home trying to do things with me after he’s done with another. I don’t know how to get over this bump in the road. In the mean time I’ve been focusing on my baby since he gives me a lot less things to worry about than my own partner.
I'm sorry this is happening to you. You deserve so much better and this is really shitty what is happening to you eight now. You're strong you'll figure out a way soon. I believe in you .hugs.
Update:
At this point I don’t know what to feel anymore… sometimes I feel like everything is back to normal and others I just remember everything like if it were movie I saw yesterday. But on the bright side, I’m starting a new job this week and I’m just going to focus on providing for my baby and myself. Just incase a fallout happens. And thinking of that makes me feel down since my family will not welcome me back into their home with open arms because they never wanted me to have my baby with him. Just feeling a lone in this world. Just a little. But hey of other moms can do it then so can I! 😅🥺
@duhhnuggets
Even if you left him, doesn't he have to pay child support?
Never ever allow yourself to be with a cheater. Cheater once, cheater for-e-ver.
He doesn't deserve you. I'm sorry it's all happening to you when you're in a phase where you should be taking care of your baby and him taking care of both of you.
It sucks and I genuily think you should shower yourself and your baby with deserved and sincere love instead of all the crap he's giving you.
Sending you courage and hope it all comes to an end.
For a better life. Cheers.
@duhhnuggets you are more than enough! Your feelings are completely valid and I bet your baby is gorgeous and a better distraction from your man baby! If you ever want to talk I'm here for you!
I’m so sorry. Have you spoken to him about it? Did you talk about the past affairs? Do you have a mental health professional you can talk to (if not you should get one, if you need help finding one I can give you some advice on where to start)?
are there any friends that can take you in if you decide you need to leave your home? Is there anyone who can help you take care of the baby?
i know you feel like your family won’t respond well, but sometimes people surprise us…if they don’t like your partner then they might just be glad that you are leaving the relationship.