I am starting to wonder if my colleague is even a friend

Hi:

I have been close with a colleague for quite a few years. However, I am starting to wonder if she is really my friend.

Last week, I cried because I am not where I want to be career-wise. When we talked she bragged about how she learned to be content in her position and has found happiness since. Yeah good for her but I am not her.

When I was talking to her yesterday about how I felt and how I was finding strategies that could help me feel better about myself, she goes.

”Oh you aren’t feeling that way now are you?”

Then when I was talking about finding a grad program, she told me that I need to learn to be happy where I am, otherwise I will never be happy.

While I get what she is saying, I somehow get the feeling that she wants me to do well but doesn’t want to see me doing better than her.