I'll leave it here since she might never see or respond..

It hurts so much more than I can put into words. Its so hard to believe that you're the one to hurt me so much the one who cared about me so much before and now that you don’t care at all. The pain is overwhelming, and the worst part is that it makes me question everything we shared. Was it ever real? Was it all just in my head? Just the fact that I’m even asking myself this, it cuts deeper than anything else.

My chest feels so heavy, like I can barely breathe anymore. I can’t remember the last time I felt light, or free, or just normal. Everything feels suffocating. And yet even in this pain, I still find myself looking at you with such love as if nothing happened as if you’re still the person I’ve always known. I can't explain why I can’t stop loving you, even when it hurts like this. It's like every part of me, every cell in my body, refuses to believe anything bad about you, refuses to let go of the love I still feel.

I just don’t understand why it’s so hard to let go even when I know it’s breaking me.