Need listner to talk to who won't vanish or become akward when talking to for a while

I'm in a really bad life postion right now, stuff I don't want to share in the open forum, but one thing that its causing is absurd amounts of lonliness, like I just want to speak to another human my age in preson kinda lonliness, but I can't do that so online is as good as I'm going to get I guess.

The lonlness takes a bunch of forms, most often though in the form of desiring a girlfriend both emotionally and physically. Sometimes I just need to vent, sometimes I just need to know I'm not a COMPLTLY horrible human being, sometimes I need to talk to someone about the stuff I'm ashamed about, and sometimes I just need a convesration where the other person replies in a timely manner.

Ive had some listeners block me in the past, so I'll preface this right now: I'm not looking for anything from you other than being a listener. The problems and frustration in my life can be sexual in nature and I can on the one hand understand why I'm blocked, but at the same time if you actually read why I type then there shouldn't be any confusion.