4am thoughs
Helloo I'm new here and I don't really know what to say but I'm just gonna say everything I've been thinking lately.
Okay so, I've been thinking about the fact or mostly the feeling of loneliness that I have so deep inside me, and like don't get me wrong I have my family and friends close to me and, available" but I just feel like I can't talk to them, and it's not their fault, I just can't get myself to seem different in their eyes, I have this image that they see me as someone thats always smiling and is just chill and care free, which I like honestly and sometimes is true, but lately I've been overthinking everything and can't seem to get these feelings out cause of this fake image of myself cause I feel if I say something or if I cry in front of them they just would change everything they think about me and I don't really like that.
Also about this loneliness, I used to think that by the time I reached uni I would have everything sorted out and have a boyfriend and a group of friends together with a best friend like in a sitcom lol, but I don't have any of that, I mean I have a friend group but like I can't get myself to talk to them about anything real about me or anything that isn't uni related, and I know I just have to do it cause the will listen but I feel like that's just bothering them and they would see me as burden, that's why a found this app lol I just didn't know how to express these thoughts.
So yeah I don't know, hope someone reads this and know what to do cause I don't.
@indigoCake5642
Hey, welcome to cups! 🤍
I 100% relate w this. Theres something rewarding about being the strong, positive one and showing people that you cant always be that person is scary, even if you trust them to understand.
Something that kinda helps me is looking at it from someone else's point of view. Like if i found out someone i cared about is not showing me their "negative" side I'd be so confused and trying to get them to understand that I love them with their negative parts, right?
That said its easy to say these things and harder to act on them. But your sadness or other negative emotions or doubts or 4am thoughts are all welcome on 7cups. We wont judge– we've all had our "ugly" moments on here!– and maybe one day you can open up to your little group of people in real life too 🤍
@unassumingEyes omg thank you for answering I really thought no one was gonna read my stuff lol, and honestly I never thought of it with that perspective, I might change some of my habits to try and maybe "soft launch" lol this side of myself but it's going to be hard.
Thank u again 🫶
@indigoCake5642
xD yeah I was hanging around forums when you posted so I thought I'd reply
Good luck with that 🤍 maybe tell the person you try to open up to that you feel out of your element discussing this stuff but it affects you and you'd like to talk about it, yknow?
@indigoCake5642
Welcome to cups 🤗 🩷
Thank you for sharing and being so honest.
It can be so difficult open up to loved ones and friends.
We don't want them to see us any differently.
But you matter.
How you feel matters.
You don't have to be alone here.
It's a very quiet, safe and non judgemental space to just vent and get it all out anytime 🩷
Warmly welcomed
Plz read the community section of grief and loss dated 20th Aug,2026 and give your suggestions below that thread itself.
Deeply appreciate
i feel the same way
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