Am I A Bad Person?? :(

Hello sweet cupers..!! 🌸 How are doing today?? hope u have a wonderful day ahead... always wish the best for y'all 💞 

Lemme keep it simple, I'm tired of even typing xD . will try not to make it huge :) 

Lol I'm drowning agn, feeling like a bad person... like a monster, even any feelings. i feel like I'm hurting Ppl's like I'm hurting 'em, i don't want to:( but i also what to prioritise me, my health. I'm feeling like im being disrespectful to parents...!! Ik they're abusive but i also don't want neglect the goods they've did so far. Am i not grateful for what they did to me ?? but blaming them when they point out my mistake's?? is that make any senses?? i think I'm selfish, bad one. dunno?? i can't be myself anymore. trying to engage, be myself, Focus on my Stuffs but nothing is working... :( I'm so disoriented.

I just want to vent, nothing else...!! feeling unloved, pushed away, pointless in my life...!! (not feeling heavy but theres something quietly disturbing me) cups my anchor, you Ppl's help me boost up my energy n confident...!! i just want to feel loved, just want remind myself that y'all here for me ❤️ help me guy's....❤️ :)

*Hugs* 💞