Am I A Bad Person?? :(
Hello sweet cupers..!! 🌸 How are doing today?? hope u have a wonderful day ahead... always wish the best for y'all 💞
Lemme keep it simple, I'm tired of even typing xD . will try not to make it huge :)
Lol I'm drowning agn, feeling like a bad person... like a monster, even any feelings. i feel like I'm hurting Ppl's like I'm hurting 'em, i don't want to:( but i also what to prioritise me, my health. I'm feeling like im being disrespectful to parents...!! Ik they're abusive but i also don't want neglect the goods they've did so far. Am i not grateful for what they did to me ?? but blaming them when they point out my mistake's?? is that make any senses?? i think I'm selfish, bad one. dunno?? i can't be myself anymore. trying to engage, be myself, Focus on my Stuffs but nothing is working... :( I'm so disoriented.
I just want to vent, nothing else...!! feeling unloved, pushed away, pointless in my life...!! (not feeling heavy but theres something quietly disturbing me) cups my anchor, you Ppl's help me boost up my energy n confident...!! i just want to feel loved, just want remind myself that y'all here for me ❤️ help me guy's....❤️ :)
*Hugs* 💞
This thread is open for everyone here but just tagging few people's ik here
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@jesusredeemedme2425
Thank you for the tag, Kiara 😊 Love u lottiee <3
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 thank you for tagging me!
Girrrrllll…
Your brain is being a meanie again. It needs to go on timeout. Dissing you isn’t nice :(
@jesusredeemedme2425
Yeah actually, thought the same...!! gotta take break i guess, but dunno. guess, i need to distract myself with something :) thank you so much for the support 😊 love youu 💕
Sending lots of love and blessings ur way 💞
Hugs 🤗
You should actually try that. Talk to your brain like it’s a toddler and put it in timeout when it’s being mean to you.
Hello!! You are not a bad person, truly harmful people don’t question how they affect others!! Sometimes when we get hurt but chronically don’t get validation for that, or we are blamed or dismissed, we ask “what is wrong with me?” Or “I am doing something bad.” Maybe I am not getting the nuances correct, but what I do know is that you’re not bad. And needing space to vent and talk about YOU and how YOU feel isn’t selfish. Feelings are always honest no matter what. Regardless of whether or not they may or may not make sense. You are always allowed to feel. No one can tell you your feelings are bad. I know you do your best to not hurt people!! It’s so hard, you suffered a lot and have troubles but you are so kind. It’s not fair. So when you need help, it’s good to ask. I’m glad you asked for help!! Again, you’re far from being a bad person ok!!
@ConstellationSystem
Hey system 💞
I'm so grateful for ur word's honestly... you made me feel seen, which is not easy for me :) yeah... I've got plenty of questions that are unanswered, it's just confusing me with stuffs i do, eventually end up self blaming...!! Thank you the warm word's, it's hard for me believe tbh, but do made me feel better 😊..!! appreciate u a lot, your doing awesome 💕
Hugs 🤗
I understand it’s difficult to accept the idea that you’re not bad! Not cause there’s truth to you being bad but because there’s a lot of history and hurt behind that anxiety. I’m glad You felt seen though and that it felt good even a little bit, I meant what I said, have a nicer day than yesterday
@ConstellationSystem
Thank you so much for saying this ❤️...!! it's now hard for me to take this words but I also want to see what you Ppl's see in me. maybe my past n present brought me up to this, but i going to focus on the things which will make me stay strong for me even while Ppl's throw me out ❤️.
Yeah, i fully mean it... u made me feel seen 😊, n thank you for the wishes, i hope the same for you though 🤗 Ppl's like you are my anchor ❤️ Appreciate ur presence here 😊
*Hugs* 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 *big hug!* focusing on you is a fantastic idea I know you give a lot of your self!
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 people who see you grow and be happier will be the real ones, not people staying just for what you give. You’ll feel more peace
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
I'm having one of my sleepless nights, maybe for a reason, you are awesome Ailura a shining light to many on here.
@RunningMachine
Sry to hear tht you having sleepless nights...!! hope things be soon ease up for n Thank you for the kind words 😊. have a great day ahead 🌸
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
It sounds like there is a lot rushing around in your mind, and the feelings that go along with those thoughts sound jumbled and challenging. It can be difficult to feel justified in choosing to prioritise oneself, and feelings of obligations can really muddy those waters. No wonder you feel a need for a little bit of extra support from your fellow Cuppers (Cuppites, Cupplings? Not sure what might be the best verb for your fellow 7Cup peers).
There is a lyric from a song that always comes to mind when times are tumultuous and things seem to be getting a bit too much to handle; "...when the storms are raging round you, stay right where you are". If you feel that you need to prioritise yourself at the moment, then try to let yourself do so without guilt. Guilt is a bit like carrying an extra suitcase full of bricks on a journey...it won't help you on the way, nor improve the destination, it just makes things harder. People who care about you will understand. As to being grateful,..that you mention it shows you are thinking about it...and people who care for you surely do things for you BECAUSE they care, and not for you to demonstrate gratitude. Be kinder to yourself. It is a lot easier to be thoughtful when one does not have a whole heap of worries piled up. We are all rooting for you!
@BastionKnight
(Noun, not verb...silly Bastion)
@BastionKnight
Lol 😂 How abt Cuppeers ?? XD
@BastionKnight
Hey knight 😊 hope you have a great day ahead 💞!!!
Reading this strangly calm my heavy emotions that are going wild slowly... honestly dunno why xD. I'm feeling like I'm just being full of me, prioritising me while ripping out others feelings but I don't want to lose myself anymore by choosing Ppl's over me. you spot it right abt guilt, that's exactly how i feel... dunno how to cope with this, but I'll be alright soon, I'm strong XD
I really love the lyric 😊 just stood out to me <3 "when the storms are raging round you, stay right where you are" i think need to slow down, instead of drowing to my thoughts away.
Thank you for being kind to me... I'm grateful for ur kindness 😊 you just made my heart lighter... awesome Ppl's like are my anchor 🌸
*Hugs* 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 I'm really sorry that you're feeling this way 🙁 You're not a bad person or a monster. The fact that you feel so much, and reflect, even after being hurt, shows that you care ❤️ I can relate to some of the stuff that you've mentioned, It's okay to feel however you're feeling.
@fossilfellow
Hey hi fellow 😊 Thank you so much for the support n love...!! those are really kind n meaningful words to me ❤️ it's just simply warm my heart to have Ppl's like u here... it alone can boost up my energy agn 😊. I appreciate a lot ❤️ just be awesome as always 😊
Hugs 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 💖💖
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 Awwwww my 😴 twin. I am so sorry you have a lot weighing on your heart! But I can assure you-- you are not unloved! We ❤️ you and accept you! I don't think you are necessarily a "bad" person. You're just a person! No one living is all good or bad, sleepy twin. Perfection doesn't exist for us currently and that's ok, because it does not make you less than. It doesn't make you unlovable or hard to love. Your such a beautiful, kindhearted person. We see you. You show up for others and open your heart. You are just fine. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Please be gentle with you. You deserve all the love and nurture and care. You're special to us, young old 👵 😺! You've got to know it. You're not a monster. If you feel you hurt someone, apologize and move forward. Don't paint yourself this bad picture for making a mistake. You're not. Your heart is full of love. Show it! Others will see past and who you really are. Also, wanting to make yourself a priority does not make you selfish or bad. I recommend and encourage that you do. You're soooo important in this world and you should be your top priority. I'm headed to bed but I will include you in a prayer tonight. ❤️ Night night. Xoxo.
@YourCaringConfidant
Hiya 😴 twin..!! 💞
Young old?? *Chuckles* 😄💕 loved that lol.
Omg sweetieee, did u just read that what u wrote?? 😭 it makes lot of sense to me... that's so thoughtful n kind words for me. more often i failed to see what I am... i just picture me as what PPLs had once said even wile knowing how bad it could be. idk why i could take the Positivity i received? but the negativity quickly. it's humanly ik. maybe it's because all the positively i receive is behind the screen while the harsh words hit straight to my heart face to face constantly in a day. but it's normal i guess... Ppl's do go through this, it common to have this in my life as others. i just don't want to carry with me where i go forward in life, but i wnt to see my worth n who actually I am. but this the part i struggle... dunno how will i make it but i will. one day at a time 😊. hopefully...!!
Actually i feel good abt stand for me, prioritising me more than anything, in the process I have to stay away from specific ppl. considering my goodness n them as well. i do this even they feel hurt or I do...!! i put myself in front of me... it's hard for me pull this move month's ago but I'm glad I can atleast have the courage n strength to prioritise my own feelings n thoughts.
Lol, sryy..!! it gotten so huge xD. 😄
You just lighten up my heart... dunno how but reading this helped me honestly. Appreciate ur support n meaningful words to me. it makes so much sense to me.. 😊 thank you so much 😴 twin 💕 Love you infinite 💞
*Hands u ice-cream n cupcakes*
*Tight Hugs* 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Hey ailuraa… im really sorry you’re feeling like this. i just wanted to say you are not a bad person, and you've never been. you've always been so kind and caring, and im sure no one doubts that❤️
and i know this same feeling but hey, it’s okay to feel confused about your parents too; you can appreciate them n still feel hurt by them at the same time. that doesn’t make you ungrateful or selfish, just human
also you’re not alone in this. we're all here for you, just the way you're always here for us :)) and just like u always say- we dont have to have everything figured out but instead we take one step at a time
you matter so much ailura! i hope u feel loved becs you truly deserve it🤗❤️
warm hugs your way🫂✨
@enthusiasticHouse3272
Aww nethu💞, thank you so much for ur lovely support, it mean's lot to me when it's from u...!! you're one of the kind soul where i feel safe n loved 😊. just hearing from you had lightened my heart in the best way possible 🌸
Love you a lot, sweetie..!! really appreciate your presence here ❤️ just know that you made my day 😊
*Pat on ur head* *Tight hugs* 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Hey there. I don't know what to call you so you have to give me a nick that I can use for you. 😃
I'm sorry that you're going through these mix of emotions. But let me tell you that you're not a bad person. Sometimes, we begin to question the rights and wrongs falling in an endless loop of judgement. This usually happens when you've got some spare time and have no activity in hand. The key to keep the *overthinking* at bay is by keeping yourself occupied with productive activities and mindful thoughts.
Also, while it's important to respect our elders- parents. It's also worth considering that toxicity doesn't deserve reciprocation in the form of kindness. I don't mean to instigate you here but how about distancing yourself from the negativity? Perhaps until you're ready to face them. Or maybe turnaround the situation?
@trueconfidant123
Hey hi sweetie 😊, hope u have great day..!! lol *forgot our timeline* Have a peaceful night 🤗❤️
You can call me Ailura 😊..!! Ailuros mean's cat in Greek 😊 uhm... I'm a cute cat yk 😄
I appreciate ur honestly here..!! thank you so much taking ur time to read this... those are meaningful response, make so much sense to me 😊. you are right when u mentioned that these thoughts occupy me when I have nothing to do or the time i sit alone n do nothing...!! i thought the same actually to keep my busy with stuffs n focus on the meaningful stuffs, guess it'll help me though 💓
Appreciate the question a lot 😊...!! actually i don't want struck up on to this negativity. so, detaching myself from them is great idea, to avoid any nuisance or harshness that i receive every other day. i won't say it'll resolve the issues itself ngl but I can assure tht it'll reduce the intensity <3
*Hugs* 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Beautiful name, Ailura!
That is some great self reflection. Temporary detachment sounds fine at the moment. But do make sure that you don't end up feeling hollow. Because feeling something is better than feeling nothing at all.
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 You’re not a bad person sweetie!!! 🥺 A “bad person” wouldn’t care if they hurt someone’s feelings. You’re just trying to protect yourself and that’s important! 💓 Sometimes we have to prioritise ourselves and that’s completely fine! Don’t worry, you’re way too kind and caring to become a “bad person” 🤗
Wishing you the best, hope your situation gets better soon, please remember there are good times waiting for u! 💗🍀
Also, thank you for tagging me ☺️
Sending love n hugsss to u 🤗💓
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@Butterfly723389
Aww loviee 🤗, it fills up my heart to hear from u 😊. hope u doing awesome sweetie. hope u enjoying ur time with ur new friend, sweetheart ❤️
Those are beautiful words honestly, I'm so glad to read this ❤️...!! you have ur own of comforting me 😊. i appreciate every words you say ❤️...!!! love you infinite...!! it means so much to me 😊.
*Hand u ice-cream n chocolate 🍫* *Tight Hugs* sending lots of happiness and infinite love from me ❤️
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Nice to hear from u 🤗💗 I actually don’t know how I‘m doing. It‘s pretty chill but somehow my pessimistic mindset came back all of a sudden 😐 but it’s rather annoying than anything 😅 and reading your replies always makes me smile 🙃💓
Nom nom * enjoys tasty ice cream n chocolate * 😋 hehe ty ☺️😁 Also, I love the gif!
Love u sweetieee, hug u closer to my heart 🤗💖
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@Butterfly723389
Aww sweetie, thank you ❤️...!! i hear you.. i can understand what you might be feeling rn, it okay to feel this way sometimes...!! not knowing how we feeling is such troublesome, it's not something easy to handle. I'm glad you feel good reading my post 😊 mean's a lot to me ❤️
Love you infinite 💕
*Hugs* 🤗
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@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Thank you, lovieee ❣️
Thight hugsss 🤗
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@Butterfly723389
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