Anyone with DID?

I have a history of trauma, abandonment, so yeah. I have bpd. I had started dissociating really bad. Dp/dr. Losing time. Amnesia. Sleep? Nonexistent. I have been losing a lot of time after losing my support system, including my son because it triggered the abandonment issues. Anyone else with DID? Familiar with lost time? Finding journal entries and videos i dont remember at all. Or co consciousness and the effort it takes to follow multiple thoughts, identities, lives, really of multiple people in your body. It makes thinking very difficult, speaking. Writing. Anyone else ever constantly getting "memory screenshots" they dont remember, the spiral into anxiety at not remembering and the strain of hiding it from everyone for feeling crazy.