Be Honest 💕
If you had to be honest in this exact moment, no mask, no filter, what word or sentence would describe how you feel?
@Amanda84 Alone
@dynamicTown4895
You are not alone here 💜 💕
@braindamag3
What's up?
I care! 💜💕
@Amanda84
Just lately it seems like every other post I read here on cups just drags me down.
Others who are looking for connection because they are also lonely, seems like they post that initial post, I respond looking to connect. Then nothing but crickets or that person responds to others there in that thread but nothing towards my post.
I am finding lately that the IceBreakers are boring, I don't know is it just me? ADHD?? Not sure what I'm thinking lately.
I spent the last 3 days out in the country side and only looked in twice a day, I was much happier in a way but still alone.
Today, I am looking at another support forum for Social Anxiety, Maybe I'll find answers there.
@braindamag3
I'm sorry you are reaching out but they are not responding! You know, I always will 🥰
@Amanda84
Thanks
I know what it is that is eating at me and I'll know that I will never get that here, Is someone to talk to face to face. I guess I am really missing the fact that I no longer have that one confidant in my life.
@braindamag3
I get that completely 💜
@Amanda84
Exhilaration
@SkillfullMeans
🥰
@Amanda84 Tired
@impartialCurrent2209
I hope you feel rested soon 💕💜
@Amanda84
today we feeling lost and alone been long weekend for us but partly due to us as been isolating a lot we not even sure why at this point but we been dealing with a lot health wise more then normal even that a lot so sad too as we see how the abuse has effected our body and our health in so many ways seems unfair that the abuser not suffer health wise as we do but the abuse hurt our body in so many ways even now the health stuff we have some of it related to what was done in the abuse so angry too
@stormieandpaws
It's totally understandable why you are hurt and angry! Please be gentle on yourself 💜💕
@Amanda84
thanks we also been dealing with well not forgiving self for things that lead up to us losing our kids and parental rights. we trying to be good to us but it hard when memories of that come up we think of them a lot of the time as they still alive as far as we know some place out there to just it harder then if one died as we think our they ok do they have their base need taken care of so many thoughts and pain too
Wronged
@warrior996
I'm sorry to hear that 💜 💕
no mask no filter alright I feel emotionally numb and it started getting physical numbness where sigarets end up burning out on my fingers I know besides the financial benefit of my existence there's no need for me at all in fact the sun would shine brighter but due to the dependence of finance I provide I see it as some use of my existence even tho waking up everyday with my soul or in my head is a burden not worth living.
@AJtoughThinker1556
🥺
You are worth more than what you provide financially 💕💜
Left out, people seem to go away whenever I try to approach. Very tired of having no one to call friends.
@BlossomFlowerr
I'm really sorry that this has been your experience 💕💜💕
@Amanda84 Great question! I would say... uncertainty! Feeling uncertain about what could happen today, tomorrow, months from now despite all the efforts you're making. I feel like no matter how much I'm planning and working towards bettering myself right now, I still have that uncertain feeling of "what if...?" sitting in my mind. It's completely normal. It happens to the best of us. But what we can do is notice it, name it, and remind ourselves that we have tools in dealing with these types of thoughts/feelings that arise, and that's totally okay. :)
@GentleListenerHere
I agree, we don't have all the answers or all the pieces of the puzzle but that's fine 💕💜
Angry
