Difficulty in Online interactions
Hey everyone.
I am an 18yr old boy, recently passed out my school.
mainly had online classes for the final two years of my schooling. My parents were really conservative about me (as well as my brother) they always ensured we never got too involved in friendships and stuff. I followed their advices (my brother didn't). Now when i have grown up in such a protective and positive environment (my family loves me so much!), my ability to understand provocative online interactions has been hindered. As all my life i have lived in an environment mostly where i was loved respected (even looked up to).. lately since the Covid, Online interactions have become the major part of social interactions. And i really s#ck at it. If that were any less then even offline interactions with most people expect few are very tiring for me. I live most of my life inside my head so whenever anything that's not in my head is thrown up i am unable to understand the speaker's intention (until obviously after a period of time when my reaction won't matter anyway)
for eg-
1) I was being ridiculed on text, but i couldn't get that.
2) i was being threatened on text but i couldn't get that.
3) i was being called names on text in group,but i couldn't get it was me until after few months obviously.
4) the person i text the most to, it takes me like 5-10seconds to process the data & think of an adequate reply, often funny to impress her.
5) it literally took me months to realise certain people were posting some quotes on their stories for me.
and it's a very common occurrence.. to put some context into it-- I am a very bright student of my school.. i am gonna-be a doctor within 5-6years.. so it's not like i m mentally ***.. i am blessed with a fine mind.. but my mind mainly revolves around studies and obviously fun, football, the person i love and obviously my celestial fantasies, my social life is as worse as it gets.. i feel like i m a child trapped in between grown ups.. but then again, a lot of NOT-SO-NICE things done by the mentally grown ups make me wonder if i can understand things so clearly why can't they?
i feel i am very vulnerable to be betrayals from friends.. but the fact that i love my own space as much as i do.. i would rather have no friends.. but instead be a resource to the society i m part of..(like be their hero help em as much as i can) and live my life with people whom i can afford to trust.. which at this moment are very very less.. i really wanna learn to live in proper social way whereby i can for the very least understand people's intentions from their words.. or i would come off as a dumb who understands nothing..
Moreover -- i am very certain a group of my past friends spy on my phone.. they be like the lowest category of humans like the ones who spend most of their talking on talking about other people so i m not at all surprised.. that has taken a huge hit on my social growth too.. as i can no more be myself even on my phone... if anyone of you used to be similar to me but has now 'GROWN UP' let me know what you did that made the difference.
@adventurousAcres6726
Helloo there :( I'm so sorry to hear that, online intractions can be quite complicated and unnerving at times.
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