Down the dran, one thing after another

It was my car not starting. The problem have not been solved.

Now it was my laptop dying. I felt so dumb cause my laptop gave me chances to do back up. But each time, I just let it restart, kept editing my doc, watched it freeze, watched the error message, and repeat a total of 3 times before my laptop refused to start window again. Then it hit me hard, I was du-mb. I was given the chance to back up my documents, all of them. I was given enough time, n it slipped - no I let it slipped just like that.

It’s overwhelming. My car. My lost data. My laptop. I don’t have enough $$$$.

Maybe I wouldn’t be feeling so bad, if I did at least one thing right. At least one thing - if only I had not been du-mb and immediately responded to the error message screen with a quick back up with the following restart. Then even if my laptop left without a goodbye, I wouldn’t have feel so ***.

Now I am beating myself up. Like I am not enough. Like I didn’t do anything right. Previously, now, or ever in the future. :(