Exhausted beyond words
🤸🏾♀️🤸🏾♀️🤸🏾♀️🧍🏾♀️ I’ve been struggling for a while now. I don’t really know how or why, but I’ve been struggling or maybe idk man ,I’m always tired, exhausted, and constantly feeling worthless like I don’t deserve to be here. My thoughts run wild, and I honestly don’t know what they want from me anymore. I’m just tired.I tried using music to block everything out, and for a while it helped, but it didn’t last. Eventually, I just let the thoughts consume me. I started believing everything they said, maybe because it felt easier than fighting them.I’m also really lonely. I feel like I don’t belong anywherenot even here. It feels like everyone else has a clear, valid reason for why they’re struggling, and mine doesn’t feel important in comparison. So I tell myself it’s probably just a teenage phase. But then I wonderwhy does it feel like this sigh Most days, I just want someone to talk to sometimes I wake up with a heavy heart, needing anyone at all, and when I open my phone, there’s no one. I know I pushed people away, but it still hurts that no one tried to stay. It feels like they saw the chance to leave and took it. I can’t fully blame themI know I’m complicated and exhausting to deal with and lately, I’ve been thinking more about death than about my future. I don’t even see a future right now. I feel lost, like I don’t make sense anymore. I wonder if leaving would bring peace, because I don’t feel any peace here I feel like a burden worthless, useless words I’ve heard before, especially from my mom guess i can i say inahve mommy issues not a surprise honestly damn🧍🏾♀️I’m starting to realize that might have affected me more than I thought It feels like everything I do is met with criticism i mean i get were the mommy issues came from i hate crying because of that woman its like she out it in my head like it was just yesterday sigh anyways everything has felt like a blur. Sometimes I wake up and forget where I am before snapping back to reality. I have more to say, but I don’t think it would make sense So I’ll end it here.🤸🏾♀️🤸🏾♀️ im ***
Yeah im so gonna regret posting this 🚶🏾♀️ but thats laters problem 🧍🏾♀️💁🏾♀️
Sigh im tired
@hardtobeRia
im sorry that you too had to go through this. i know how it feels to be there. anything i tell you now will just sound to be mere words. so i'll give you just one advise which i read and had helped me.
"even when you are in ***, keep walking. you will eventually reach the end. why stay at the same place and be stuck there forever."
i'm sure you will figure it out, just hold on.
love you.💗
@Bcalm4u
Maybe i will figure it out maybe not but Thank you
Hii wanna be friends?💖
@lilysaccount Sure(:
You’ve got social media? Can u drop it so i can add you
@lilysaccount unfortunately we're not allowed offsite contact sorry
@hardtobeRia
Hey Ria…. 🍀
No… Ria. Please don’t regret reaching out. Ever.
I’m genuinely so proud of you for coming here—do you know how much courage that takes? That alone says so much about your strength.
I’m really sorry you’re going through all of this. What you’re carrying is heavy—intense in a way most people don’t understand. I’ve been in your shoes before… and honestly, I’m still walking in them. So when you speak, it hits close. I can relate to so much of what you shared.
You matter, Ria.
Your feelings matter—more than anything else right now.
You don’t need a “valid” reason to feel sad or broken. You’re allowed to hurt. You’re allowed to feel low, confused, exhausted—even when it doesn’t make sense. What you’re experiencing is real, and that alone is enough.
I know how it feels when self-esteem slips through our fingers. I know how it feels to put ourselves down, to feel small, invisible… worthless. I’m walking right beside you right now, Ria. Truly. Your pain resonates with me.
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this lonely. Loneliness doesn’t just sit quietly—it eats us alive from the inside. The despair can feel suffocating, like it’s slowly stealing the air from your chest.
I’m lonely too. You know what? I was crying just a little while ago, sitting here alone. I don’t have anyone to take care of me either. I don’t even know what it feels like to be truly loved or embraced—and I mean that deeply. I’m surrounded by so much cruelty. Over time, I’ve grown used to pain… almost trained myself to live with it. Loneliness feels stitched into my soul. I’ve never felt like I truly belonged—ever.
I see you, Ria. I really do.
You’re not exaggerating. You’re not being dramatic.
What you’re going through is genuinely hard—far more than most people could tolerate.
You deserve to be loved.
You deserve to be seen and heard.
You deserve care, gentleness, and safety.
You deserve compassion and empathy.
You deserve people who choose you and stay.
You deserve so much more than what life has handed you so far.
I truly, deeply appreciate you if you don’t regret reaching out, please know, it’s completely okay to feel this way, beautiful soul. There’s nothing wrong with you.
I wish I could hug you right now, hold you close, and help your heart breathe again—just to remind you that you’re not alone.
But hear this, Ria—please hear it clearly:
You are not alone. Not here. Not right now.
I’m here with you. We’re here with you. You are valued, and you never have to feel inferior for existing or feeling deeply.
Sending you so much love and warmth 💗
Gentle healing hugs… 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9
Thank you
Im sorry you could relate to that honestly not a great feeling it sucks for sure
🤷🏾♀️honestly dont think my feelings are valid but probs gonna be proven wrong for that
Im sorry 🫂 u feel that pain no one deserves that hope one day you could get poeple that truely care for you and take care
Thank you for your kind words🖤
Plss be kind to yourself u deserve that too
@hardtobeRia
Hey Ria ...🍀
My pleasure 💜... it would be my pleasure if it could make u feel any better.
No Ria... you're valid, MATTERS...
You're feeling matters, more than you think... but it's okay to feel this, i see the depth of your despair n sometimes, loneliness put us all way down. but listen dear...! it'll pass, no matter how hard you mind resist it rn. i hope things will soon ease up for ya. you're not wrong to feel this way.
Thank u for those lovely word's for me, it truly mean's a lot for me n i direct it back with u. please never lose ur hope.... You're not alone !! n yeah ik... even this word irritates:( when we obviously sitting between choas all Alone.
Yet, i want to make you feel better, make you feel valid, make you feel seen.
I want you to know I'm here for ya, you can always count on me. 🤗
@Ailuraphilelove8tear9 thank you(:
@hardtobeRia 🤗💗
@hardtobeRia hi
its better to serve comfortably than tiring yourself more than you can. relax and take care sometimes for yourself.
@bluePapaya9798 I will try
Your thoughts and feelings are valid, no matter if they are positive or negative. It took me a while to realise everyone struggles in some way or another, some just hide it better.
What helped me was spinning the criticisms into highlights, focusing on my strengths, re-training my brain and thinking about what I liked, what I was good at, what I enjoyed.
For me, it's a love of words. I hope you'll find your path too :)
@ScrabbleBrain I mean its gonna take a long time for me to do that, but hope so too, thank u
@hardtobeRia I believe in you, you'll get there and it is a process but it's worth it :)
@ScrabbleBrain
'Your thoughts and feelings are valid, no matter if they are positive or negative. It took me a while to realise everyone struggles in some way or another, some just hide it better.' 👍
I bet you're beating me, it's taken me 59 years to accept I need help to stop running away from the fact I need help 😔
@RunningMachine Not really it's a constant struggle but finding a way to vocalise it in some form helps even if it's anonymously or through people you know, therapy, support groups or forums, I feel like that's taking a step towards feeling better.
Confronting it can feel impossible but if you think about it, it's got to be better than reliving it inside your head, it may not fix everything but to me, the intensity stopped paralyzing me as much as previously, it's still there but not as monstrous :)
Pat yourself on the back for being brave
@ScrabbleBrain
My fear of retirement can't go on unchecked, small steps but DBT therapy is sounding more attractive all the time.
- riri, you is not worthless, and you deserve to be here. youre reasons for struggling is valid, riri, there not such thing as a non valid reason for struggling. I is always here for you, i sorry you going through all this.. -
@ashyayyy thanks ashmallow, me always here for you too (:
@hardtobeRia
That's tough to read as are some of the responses, I'm not going to be a great deal of help for you but such a brave post and I sincerely wish you find support that helps here.
@hardtobeRia Hi Ria. I like to tell you that just because you can’t explain why you’re struggling doesn’t make it less real. pain doesn’t need a “good enough” reason to count. The loneliness and the way your mum’s words stuck with you. I’m really glad you said something instead of keeping it all inside.
Hello,,can we talk and figure out the solutions for what you are going through