Feeling a little sad i guess

I have a surgical procedure coming up. Its not major. Just an excision under local anesthesia. Its not worrying me..the doctor was kind.

The only thing that made me feel a little sad was when the doctor said bring one person with you for support.

And I realised I didnt have anyone.

I live with my parents. My mom just had a major surgery and she isnt mobile. My dad isnt much mobile either- he stays in his room.

The hospital will have wheelchair arrangements and I have a hired help who will drive me to and from the hospital- but just the fact that I dont have any person to accompany me during the actual process .... got me into a little bit of self pity.

Ive always been alone in spite of being friendly to people. Ive dined alone, been to theatre alone, been to a party alone - simply because people around me werent interested. And every single time I did these activities by myself , the sadness was there but I got over it.

I guess tomorrow i will look back and also be over what im feeling today. This is my life. I manage it and enjoy it somewhat and thats good enough.