Feeling overwhelmed and confused but hopeful

Just started a new position at my company, didn't sleep much. Spent 2 days in a plane without a sleep and I split up with my long term boyfriend recently. I was the mature one and sent him a message after sometime of break. Didn't received a response. That hurts.

My parents are getting a divorce, so happy I left the home so I am not impacted that much.

I am in pain but holding on. I feel like I should be on my knees but managing everything and I am even genuinly happy half of the time. Am I detaching and it will hit later or have I grew strong from my past and everything will be ok?

I know it will eventually, just hard to navigate on the moment. I feel deeply things. I am trying so hard to be collected. I bit myself up when I get emotional

Thanks for letting me write these. I feel not alone!