Help..Back to Long Distance again after live in and GF concerned about .....

So now I'm back to a Long Distance Relationship. We started off in a LDR and made it work( we traveled many times to see each other) to where she moved in for a year. It was going to be our home together as we decorated it & remodeled it ourselves. We’ve known each other for 40 yrs & I was at her wedding & her little daughter was in my wedding 10 yrs later. We love each other & share the same goals, interests etc. So after my original post about lack of affection 15 months with no communication from her we talked & she opened up. Still not sure why it took so long but bottomline every time I brought it up she would feel overwhelmed & not feel like addressing it. That happens with people but 15 months? So it created some serious issues for me for many months which came to a head last weekend at a concert in front of her friends where I snapped for the first time ever & said “ Will you ever talk to me” as she was chatting the whole time with her friends & I felt like I was just some random guy. No acknowledgement of me. I was wrong to say that & have sincerely apologized many many times & to her friends who are still furious with me. One slip up out of 1000+ great things things I’ve done.. I’m on the oust sadly which is affecting my GF & her move out of state .

So she says on Monday ,which I kinda knew was coming; that she wants to move out & back to our home state to be closer to her mother of 88 yrs not doing well & older children & friends. I totally understand & love them too. We were living in a beautiful place in the Rockies but we had a real harsh Winter 600” snow & we both grew up by the beach but got burnt dealing with injuries & snow even though she lived in the Rockies on/off 15 yrs & I have even longer but at 60 yrs old sometimes we just don’t want to deal. I get it. We are as fit as any 40 yr old. She wants to continue with our relationship despite the distance again but I’m not sure about it working this time around. Maybe that’s me. But I also said I would live there & keep my home here for maybe the Summer but still be here to ski on/off. I didn’t get the feeling she wanted me to move there right now which is fine but just visit when possible until she is settled and gets in a better mind space. I want to give her her space because she is sorting through a lot now as she said I’m not sure I love myself now to give my true self back.

Bottomline my GF has concerns about me coming out to visit her & meeting her other friends despite her saying I would like you to visit. She also wants to come back here . She thinks I will snap again in front of her other friends & is worried. I’ve never snapped before & never said what I said before to anyone. I’m very social & get along with anyone no matter the place. Mellow. How do I overcome her concerns? I don’t want her to hold a few totally different times against me .. Sorry for the long message but wanted to give the facts..

So now back to a Long Distance Relationship. We started off in a LDR and made it work( we traveled many times to see each other) to where she moved in for a year. It was going to be our home together as we decorated it & remodeled it ourselves. We’ve known each other for 40 yrs & I was at her wedding & her little daughter was in my wedding 10 yrs later. We love each other & share the same goals, interests etc. So now after my original post about lack of affection 15 months with no communication from her we talked & she opened up. Still not sure why it took so long but bottomline every time I brought it up she would feel overwhelmed & not feel like addressing it. That happens with people but 15 months? So it created some serious issues for me for many months which came to a head last weekend at a concert in front of her friends where I snapped for the first time ever & said “ Will you ever talk to me” as she was chatting the whole time with her friends & I felt like I was just some random guy. No acknowledgement of me. I was wrong to say that & have sincerely apologized many many times & to her friends who are still furious with me. One slip up out of 1000+ great things things I’ve done.. I’m on the oust sadly which is affecting my GF & her move out of state . So she says on Monday ,which I kinda knew was coming; that she wants to move out & back to our home state to be closer to her mother of 88 yrs not doing well & older children & friends. I totally understand & love them too. We were living in a beautiful place in the Rockies but we had a real harsh Winter 600” snow & we both grew up by the beach but got burnt dealing with injuries & snow even though she lived in the Rockies on/off 15 yrs & I have even longer but at 60 yrs old sometimes we just don’t want to deal. I get it. We are as fit as any 40 yr old. She wants to continue with our relationship despite the distance again but I’m not sure about it working this time around. Maybe that’s me. But I also said I would live there & keep my home here for maybe the Summer but still be here to ski on/off. I didn’t get the feeling she wanted me to move there right now which is fine but just visit when possible until she is settled and gets in a better mind space. I want to give her her space because she is sorting through a lot now as she said I’m not sure I love myself now to give my true self back. Bottomline my GF has concerns about me coming out to visit her & meeting her other friends despite her saying I would like you to visit. She also wants to come back here . She thinks I will snap again in front of her other friends & is worried. I’ve never snapped before & never said what I said before to anyone. I’m very social & get along with anyone no matter the place. Mellow. How do I overcome her concerns? I don’t want her to hold a few totally different times against me .. Sorry for the long message but wanted to give the facts..