Hold Me Accountable? (ED Edition)
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I’m so sick of having an ED… an addiction to food. I’m sick of looking down at my stomach and feeling disgusted, feeling the hardness of my abdomen after a binging spree.
Can you guys please hold me accountable? One day without overeating. At ANY meal. And then, one more day. And then, one more day.
Until this ED is kicked to the curb.
I’m done. I miss me more.
And it doesn’t get to win.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Must be a source of constant frustration! I can relate, but in a different way.
I have been struggling to eat. I never really feel hungry, but I miss eating.
When I eat, it's not satisfying. The taste is still there, but I don't feel fed. It's kind of like mixing water with water. There's some stirring motion, but nothing has really changed.
This has been going on for a while. It is a source of frustration and concern.
I'm not sure what to do about it. I still force myself to eat from time to time, but it's been a while since I've gotten through a meal. Generally, more than one attempt a day is enough.
I will get through this. I'm not sure yet if there's an underlying cause. If it persists, I will seek help. But for now, I must will myself another bite, for the simple sake of survival.
Control what you can. Make smaller portions. Choose something else to do that is fulfilling and distracting.
And spare a thought for little old me? I wish we could share our burden, where you give me some of your appetite for some of my contentment.
Try a liquid diet for awhile <3 Smoothies, soups, smooth applesauce, pudding, ice cream <3 It’s not the healthiest, but it will help get calories in you! hugs
@jesusredeemedme2425
That's a good idea. Make it simpler. Reduce the mountain before me.
@jesusredeemedme2425 What is the root cause of the overeating? I am not sure if you can just "get over" over eating without getting into the nitty gritty of why it happens
Honestly probably PTSD/trauma.
I asked my mom to move my food away from me when I know I was done, when I ate dinner tonight. I won!!!! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 you did well 😊 we are proud of you 😊 you got this, one meal at the time ❤️
Thank you! The only snack I had tonight was a small piece of chocolate. Another win! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
My dear, accepting your weakness and owning your truth is a hard step and you did it. Everything else is just a matter of time, tracking and being kind and patient with yourself 💕. So proud of your courage in saying out loud, I find that giving voice to what we are doing helps us become more accountable. You got this.. keep checking in and we got your back.
I did REALLY good at all meals today!!!
I was tempted to eat trail mix out of boredom, but refrained.
I only had a large cookie as a snack, hours after dinner.
…and then I ate part of a small bag of chips and part of a small bag of Cap’n Crunch. Which was too much.
But I won every other time today!
Are you guys proud of me? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 you did great 😊
