Hold Me Accountable? (ED Edition)
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I’m so sick of having an ED… an addiction to food. I’m sick of looking down at my stomach and feeling disgusted, feeling the hardness of my abdomen after a binging spree.
Can you guys please hold me accountable? One day without overeating. At ANY meal. And then, one more day. And then, one more day.
Until this ED is kicked to the curb.
I’m done. I miss me more.
And it doesn’t get to win.
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I am sorry you are going through this.
@jesusredeemedme2425 i dont quite know how to help with that 😅 would daily check-ins help? Little encouragements? Proud of you for trying so hard btw. You will succeed one day 🤍
Both <3
I hope so… I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 that is really relatable 🤍 but you have taken (several) first steps xD what's the ed? an annoying shadow that follows you. what're you? the brave soul that is way more than it! you are your art, your kindness, your sadness, your faith, your doubts: you are not your ed.
and you are our lovely friend who's gonna figure things out bit by bit 🤍
I hope you’re right… I feel very vulnerable and angry and out of control lately :(
@jesusredeemedme2425 i get feeling angry- it's truly frustrating. But you are in control, even if you're stumbling and slipping your way through. You get to choose to keep going and no annoying ed can take that away from you 🤍
@jesusredeemedme2425 I remember you mentioning eating without screens helping you before. Wanna try that for today?
That’s so boring though XD
@jesusredeemedme2425 yep. It is. 😢
How about eating with a book instead? Do you think that might help?
That’s what I do most of the time lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 I'm sorry you're feeling this way 🙁 You're not disgusting ❤️ your feelings truly matter. I don't know how i can help, but I'm here for you in this ❤️ Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️
@fossilfellow
Your presence is inspiring.
Sometimes, there are no words. Sometimes, all we can do is walk together, so we're not alone.
@cyanessence Thank you â¤ï¸ð¥°
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm here for you in whatever capacity I can 💕💜
@jesusredeemedme2425 if I knew how to help you then I would, I really would🙁 but I struggle with the opposite, I really need to start eating again🙁 ED's are so hard 🙁 hugs you tightly 💖
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I did great at breakfast. Ok at lunch.
BINGED SO HARD at dinner that I thought it would straight up mess me up for hours, if you know what I mean… The panic attack stemming from that was NOT good.
I hate having an eating disorder… I never thought I’d have one.
@jesusredeemedme2425 two out of three meals went well! Thats like about....70% (66. smth close enough xD) 70% success is pretty good 🤍 the rest ≈ 30% not-success cant take that away from you. take that, ed! xD
@jesusredeemedme2425 you did amazing! Battling an Ed is not all or nothing, it is a gradual improvement. You did a good job with 2 out of 3 meals, and that's amazing 😊
Are you taking zinc?
@jesusredeememe
Hey there! Back here after a break.
Do you engage in any physical activity? I had eating disorder and I felt it was helpful to quite an extent
My work is very physical.
Also, welcome back! <3