How do you keep going?
I want to be happy I try to be happy. I don't want to be a burden of a nuisance. But it's so hard to stay positive when health issues keep knocking you back. And memories won't leave you alone. I've never had much of a chance a slave to 26 owners for 18 years now stuck in a wheelchair unable to look after myself. I feel so down lately 😔 my head is just completely messed up when something seems to start going right something else knocks you back. I don't know what I've done wrong why bad stuff keeps happening 😓
@Tinywhisper11 You're an amazing friend. I feel that set backs, make us stronger and something good will come from it. It has happened to me. I have had many set backs, in life and even in leadership here at 7cups. I did not get every roll I applied for, but that is ok. I got other rolls, that were more meaningful to me and I learned a lot from them. I also feel, you learn how to solve problems and reflect on what you could have done differently for the next time. Or what you did to make things better. I think something good, will come from this. I am very sorry, it had to come at the expense of others, hurting you and abusing you. I think you would, in time maybe be a good listener here at 7cups or an advocate or even a good public official. You have such, a caring heart. There is a silver lining in all of this, you just have to find yours. You have a voice, you just have to find ways to use that voice, that will make you feel better and that will give your voice a purpose and that makes a difference for you. I believe everyone, has a purpose in this life. You just have to find yours. When, you do I will do my best to support you. Maybe, look into groups online, that need advocates, some groups even train them. I believe in you Tiny. You can make a difference, in this world of ours. I hope this gives you some food for thought. Keep your head up, my friend.😃 You are in my thoughts and prayers. 🎈

@calmMango9611 ❤ maybe when I get better, stronger and braver I can make a difference and help someone ❤❤
BE HOPEFUL TINY-LOVELY❤️
More power to you

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@Tinywhisper11
Tiny, I want to start this off by saying I’ve seen how you interact on here. You never engage in fighting or negativity, your presence here oozes positive personality. I’m sorry you’ve been feeling like this lately, but I’m happy that you’re showing us this side of you so we can assist in showing you how awesome of a person you really are. Memories are just that, memories, the past you lived through cannot be changed, and I’m so sorry that you have had it rough for so long. The only thing that I can say that helps to overcome bad memories is time. You cannot force recovery from a bad past, that will only drive you towards a darker place. Give it time and try to understand that those memories do not dictate who you are anymore, and that you are leaps and bounds better now compared to yourself then. As for the wheelchair, you shouldn’t be ashamed of who you are, you cannot help that you are in a wheelchair. If someone makes fun of you, they are not secure in themselves and quite frankly, need to go away because they don’t deserve your time. Life has a way of giving you a suckerpunch at any given moment, and it hurts, I’ve been punched many many times. What matters the most is that you hit it back harder. Do not give up on yourself, we aren’t going to give up on you. Keep pushing forwards and I hope better days are ahead for you.
I feel the same way, while I’m not in the same boat as you. I feel as though my feelings are constantly invalid. No one is making me think that way, sure some things might, but I know it’s not them it’s me.
Every neutral situation feels critical of me even if it’s not.
I’ve found a psychologist to talk to on the 31st. But my main point is look up avoidant personality disorder. It can be brought on by trauma and a slew of other things.
I just know finding a potential diagnosis made me feel a little less alone. It made me feel like honestly this isn’t all my fault.
there’s things you know like knowing people love you/like you , but then there’s your feelings where you feel like no one loves you.
im so tired of therapists telling me that’s great you know that! It’s a step to fix it! It’s not actually it’s just logic working against the emotional part of the brain and it doesn’t actually do anything, I’ve finally found a therapist that may actually help with CBT.
aorry I rambled but I hope that maybe something I said will help or at least make you feel less alone
Did I tell you you're one of my favorite people on here?????? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 you did now yes😁💖💖💖
@Tinywhisper11
I think that fact you can smile sometimes and more than that you want to smile is such an amazing fact.
God made us all in his image and that alone makes you beautiful, you're a reflection of God. You struggles have a certain kind of beauty to them too (hope that is not offensive) your ability to keep trying, even if only sometimes is a great thing, so don't ever lose it. (It would be hard to find it if you can't walk, sorry once again hope I am not offensive.)
I love you and your posts so keep fighting the good fight!❤️❤️❤️
@7Bear7 💖💖 thanks sweetie 💗💗 I am much happier now, and very grateful that God blessed me with this second chance at life💖💖
@Tinywhisper11 oh and nothing you said was offensive💖

@Tinywhisper11
Tanks! I am always overthinking everything and ya know the voices shout at me so I am always apologizing.

@Tinywhisper11
That's wonderful! I'm praying you and God will use it well and find all the beautiful things!❤️
I think they’re beautiful too <3 Being able to inform others about cruelty that were not aware of, so we can truly see and begin to fight. Showing us there’s hope in heartbreak <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 thank you! Glad to hear people can see beauty and help people out.
